loving and missing someone simultaneously is like a trap that blocks you in your own body; you don't seem to get out, you just can't.
you're continuously getting more and more frustrated but this feeling isn't going away; you want an escape.
you're so frustrated you cry, you scream, you pray, but it all seems to be so consuming to even make sense of.
so you give up. you give up and get up, and then give up again - the cycle inevitably continues.
you can't tell if it's a cage you're trapped in, or if you are the cage yourself.
it's all so tiring, you see; your only fault was to fall in love, and now you can't get up, let alone rise, huh. you just continue to wonder why. why did you have to fall in love? could you do it otherwise? if you could, would you've been able to predict the consequences to have a reason to prevent it from happening in the first place? you make no sense. that's the whole point. everything seems senseless. everything feels senseless.
you're helpless. you can't do anything. and there you are, trying to see this invisible cage you would very much like to get out of.
you want to find an escape, one that haven't ever existed.
