how do i tell you you were my inspiration? with you no longer here, my motivation is being worn out slowly and breaking me apart. without you here, i have been trying to hold up to the best of my abilities, but i'm breaking apart. i can no longer hold myself together. i've been trying to stitch my pieces together for such a long time that now it's hard to hold it all together. i'm breaking apart.
but i have no choice. i will hold on and i'll go on and this pain wouldn't kill me, but it'll tear down all my pieces until what remains of me is only fragments of someone who once used to be a human. no one would be able to look at me and avoid the sunrays passing through the shattered me. i'll blind whoever would ever try to piece me back together. my sharp edges will injure them and force them to give up.
i'm tired.
i can't hold it together no more.
how do i continue hoping one day someone else will hold me? i'm losing it all.
