《Don't give up on me 》- 1

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Bonne lecture💕

Cela faisait quelques minutes qu'on était dans la voiture, et jusqu'ici le trajet se fit silencieusement. Vu le chemin qu'il empruntait, on se dirigeait chez Issa. Ce traitre.

Une fois arrivé devant la maison d'Issa, je m'apprêtais à sortir quand il verrouilla la portière.

- tu fais quoi là? Lui dis je d'un ton insolent

- tu comptais me le dire un jour?

Je tourne la tête vers lui.

- De ?

- don't play dumb, you know what I'm talking about, me dit il d'un ton ferme

- non, dis-je en le regardant dans les yeux

Il tourne la tête vers sa fenêtre.

- Fuck Amy, how could you keep this from me ! Me cria t-il

-Don't , prononçais je en riant nerveusement

- Don't what !?

-You don't want to have this conversation, I'm telling you

- ...This isn't you

- Quoi !?

- The way you're speaking, cursing, the fact that you beat up a woman in front of your children's school. This isn't the Amy I know

- Oh God, the AUDACITY you have. Boy, you just got out of prison for stabbing a man. And you don't even know what this bitch told me. So please don't even try to judge me! And of course I'm not the 5 years ago Amy. What ? Would you prefer her? The miserable, sad, pitiful Amy, pregnant and alone. Excuse me for changing, after YOU LEFT ME. Excuse me for not using sweet words to you anymore , excuse me for becoming a stronger woman for my kids Ismael.

- ...If i knew that you were pregnant I wouldn't have-

-What !? You wouldn't have what ? Left me ? Or try to kill a man ? A shitty man yes but still a man. Yes, I'm sure you wouldn't have left me and of course it would have worked. The children at school during the week, and as an extra-curricular activity : see dad in prison. Sounds funny doesn't it?

- ...

Je tourne à nouveau la tête vers lui et le regarde. La manière dont il tenait son volant, il était énervé, je l'avais énervé car j'avais raison et c'est exactement ce que je cherchais à faire.

- You know Ismael, I'm not even blaming you for what you did to that cop, this man deserves way more than what you inflicted to him. But you didn't deserved to lose all those years for him. He won and you lost...
What I'm blaming you for is that, that day at the prison, I was going to tell you, that I will wait for you, that me and our babies will wait for you, but you just shut me down before I even had the occasion to tell you so... And I don't know if you thought that I was too weak to handle this situation , or if it was just your ego who pushed you to that decision. But I just hope, that now you understand, how bad this decision was.

- ...

- Now if you could just open that freaking door, so I could just finally see MY children.

Il déverrouille la portière et je n'en attends pas plus pour sortir de cette voiture où j'avais l'impression d'étouffer. Toutes les fois où je me suis imaginé lui dire ce que je ressentais, et maintenant c'était enfin sorti,. J'me sentais libéré mais toujours lourde sur le cœur en même temps.