Karl Jacobs
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It's Christmas day. I couldn't be more unhappy, i've barely spoken or seen Sapnap since yesterday when we were shopping. He cancelled on the Christmas Eve party at my house last night, the party he's come to every year since we met. The same party he seemed so excited about yesterday afternoon. He said he was at home but he failed to stay away from Harmony's Snapchat story. It hurts a lot but I know there is nothing I can do to stop this from happening.
"Open your presents sweetie" mum gives me a sweet smile that makes me feel a bit better. I look down at the neatly wrapped present and I slowly tear it open. A grin spreads across my face as I see a stack of cartoon soundtracks on vinyl. "I was in your room the other day and noticed you're missing a few".
"How did you know which ones to get?" I smile as I go through seeing some of my favourites that i've been saving up to buy.
"Nick helped me, he even came to the store with me so I got the right one" I look up at her, a bit shocked to hear Sapnap helped her out. "I also helped him pick out your present for him, it's a shame he couldn't make it last night".
"Uh, yea. I wish he was here" I fake a smile. "Thank you mum".
Dad enters the room and I watch the smile on her face fade away as he starts complaining about going to see her family today. I take that as my cue to leave the room before i'm involved. I grab the few presents I got and make my way to the stairs. I open my door and stack my stuff on my dresser before I turn to my bed.
"How did you get in here?" I held back a scream as I turned to see Sapnap sitting on my bed with a small Christmas bag in his lap. He has a small smile on his face as his eyes flicker from mine then down.
"You wear it to bed?" he questions, pointing to the sweater I have on.
"N-No, I put it on before I went downstairs" I lie. Why does he always catch me wearing it? "How did you get in here?" I make my way over to him and sit down next to him.
"I'm sorry for not coming last night" he pauses, still not answering my question. "I know you saw me at Harmonys, i'm really sorry Karl, I just- I was at home! I was with my family but then Julia and I-"
"It's fine".
I know Sap and Julia aren't at all close, I know that he always leaves when theres tension so he doesn't get angry at his family. He loves his family, he'd do anything to keep them happy. I know about all the times as a child he had to put up with Julia being rude to him because she knew he'd do nothing back. They get along most the time, but when they're upset with each other then it's really bad. Just like I am with my dad.
"I was going to come here, but Harmony invited me to her place and I just wanted a distraction" he shrugs, looking down as he fiddles with the handles of the bag in his hands. "Merry Christmas".
"Wait-" I get up and grab his wrapped present from the top of my cupboard. "Merry Christmas Sapnap". I wait and watch him open his first. Once the present is revealed he looks at me with shock, I look between him and the box of new shoes that he wanted.
"Dude, these are like $200 shoes!" I bring my knees to my chest and hide my bright red face as I let out a giggle of happiness. "Thank you" he looks down at the shoes, happy that he finally has them after talking about them for months.
"I hope they're your size" he checks the size and informs me that it's the correct size, he then tells me to open my gift. I look into the bag and pull out a framed photo of us. The very first photo we ever got together, i'm shorter then him in this and I have glasses. It was taken just before we went into some convention our mums forced us into going.
"Your mum told me about your dad coming in here... and uh- Yea" he stutters a bit, not wanting to mention what happened that day. " So I got you a replacement!".
"Thank you" the butterflies in my stomach are more crazier then they've ever been. "Why this photo? Why not the dolphin one?"
"Well, that was the first time we really hung out, it was when we really became friends" he looks down at the photo with a smile. I stand up and place the framed photo on my beside table with the purple lava lamp he got me last year. "I own that entire table".
"You do" I laugh while looking at the things I have scattered on there. "You never told me how you got in here".
"Easy, I came through the chimney cause i'm santa" he lifts up his sweater to show a red santa print shirt that his parents make him wear every year. "Duh".
"Sorry, I forgot that my best friend is literally St. Nick" he chuckles at my dumb pun and stands up.
"I'm still sorry about last night" he smiles softly as we both stand together in the middle of my room. I suddenly remember the dream I had two nights ago, standing in this exact position with Sapnap in my room, and he was leaning in, his hand already on my cheek as I waited to see what was happening next. But then I woke up.
"Karl?" he snaps his fingers and I look at him, "I have to go" he sighs.
"Oh, yea sorry I zoned out".
"I noticed" he nods. "Merry Christmas" he holds his hand up and I give him a high-five, which is our version of hugging. "I'll talk to you later".
"Merry Christmas" I say as I watch him crawl across my bed then out my window, silently wishing that we shared a real hug.
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Sweater Weather - Karlnap (au)
Fanfiction"Karl" he says softly, making me turn to face him. "Do you ever feel different?" he asks, without looking at me. "Different in what way?" he turns to me, looking me in the eyes.
