Karl Jacobs
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(TW: family arguing)
I stare at the hotel beds that are occupied by two drunk girls. Sapnap is in the bathroom cleaning up Harmonys mess from her shower, i've been told to stand here and watch them. They eventually told us they ran into each other at the party and last minute decided to use Lolas spare tickets to 'surprise' us. Harmony said she wasn't having a good time at the party with Chelsea following her around, and Lola just didn't want to be at the party, she wanted to be at the concert but was dragged to the party by a friend. I don't want to say they ruined our night, because they didn't. Sapnap and I were having a great time, we even had an almost romantic moment. Until they showed up. They kept drinking throughout the show so by the time the concert ended they were both blubbering messes that couldn't walk without assistance.
Sapnap didn't want to bring Lola back here, but I refused to leave her on her own in an Uber to a hotel she might be staying at. So she's here now laying on my bed, her make up smudged onto the pillows, her pants rolled up to her knees from rolling around too much, and my sweater on to keep her warm. Sapnap dressed Harmony into some of his clothes, he even took her make up off for her. She's peacefully sleeping, soft snores leaving her perfect lips. How could someone look so perfect while sleeping?
"It's 6am" Sapnap groans as he walks out of the bathroom. "We're not getting any sleep in before this drive home".
"You need sleep" I look at him, his eyes flicker up to mine. "I can look after the girls".
"I don't want you to get lonely" he leans against the doorway, I can't help blush when I notice how good he looks. "I know you hate being awake and alone at night".
"I'll be fine" I swallow. "I'll just read" I look away before I do or say something I regret.
Sapnap walks past me and lays down on the bed, his eyes open as he stares at the ceiling. I stay silent, not knowing if he wants me to say something or not.
"You still had fun tonight, right?" He's still staring at the ceiling.
"Yea, of course" I pause. "Did you?"
"I don't think there will ever be a time when i'm not having fun with you around".
We fall into silence. So silent i'm almost positive he can hear how hard and fast my heart is pumping in my chest right now, and maybe my thoughts full of my imagination of us together in a field somewhere. I can't think of anything to say to him, i'm scared if I open my mouth i'm just going to confess everything. So we stay sitting in silence. After a while I hear snores leaving his lips, lips that are even more perfect than Harmonys.
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They dropped me off at home an hour ago. The car ride home was tiring, Lola ended up coming with us so it was a long drive of just two hungover girls complaining about every little thing happening around them. I've never been hungover so I can't judge their behaviour, all I know is that it was bothering Sapnap and I the whole way home. They both didn't let us stop anywhere, even when I needed to go to the toilet. The only stop we made was at McDonalds so Harmony could get some fries, and Lola could get a sundae because that is apparently her hangover cure.
When I walked inside my parents were arguing, they didn't even notice I had arrived home. I walked straight up to my room and i've been here since, they're still downstairs yelling at each other. I have music playing but i'm not actually listening to it, nothing has ever been able to drown out the sound of them. When they're like this I begin to feel like i'm stuck down in a whole they dug for me. I can hear them above me arguing non-stop, all I want to do is stop them but I can't. All I can do is sit here and do nothing. I just sit in my room, staring at the ceiling hoping one day they'll notice me sitting at the bottom of the hole they dug, silently screaming for their attention.
The door slams shut, grabbing my attention. I sit for a second waiting to hear their voices but there's nothing, there is just the sound of my dads truck starting. I crawl on my bed up to the window to see him speeding out of our street. The streetlights flicker on and my door is creaking open. I turn to see my mum standing in the doorway, looking at me with eyes that hold no emotions.
"I'm so sorry Karl, I thought you were still out" her hands stays on the door handle, letting me know she isn't going to stand here talking to me for long.
"It's okay" I say while turning my music down. "How are you?"
"I'm alright" she lies. "He just wanted some money and I didn't have any to give him" she lets out a small fake laugh. "How was the concert? How's Nick?"
"The concert was good" I nod. "Nick is alright, he had a good time to".
I'm suddenly transported back to last night, watching him stare at the ceiling as he said something I can't stop thinking about. I don't think there will ever be a time when i'm not having fun with you. If I could go back I would ask him questions, I would keep going until he confessed his secret feelings for me. I can only imagine how it would all go if it was just us and the girls weren't there. Would he have said more?
"I'm happy" mum pulls me back into reality. "You deserve to have good times like that, i'm lucky to have such a beautiful son" she walks over and places a kiss on my forehead.
"I'm lucky to have the best mum" she looks up at me, a small genuine smile on her face.
"It's all going to be okay, I promise" she says the same lie i've heard multiple times all my life.
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Sweater Weather - Karlnap (au)
Fanfiction"Karl" he says softly, making me turn to face him. "Do you ever feel different?" he asks, without looking at me. "Different in what way?" he turns to me, looking me in the eyes.
