Karl Jacobs
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Lola and I step into the school corridors, my arm is wrapped around her shoulders and she's smiling with satisfaction. I hear a group nearby gasp, I just smirk. We continue walking until we're at her locker, my arm drops and I then reach out to grab her hand as she unlocks her locker. We're both smile at each other, grabbing all the attention we can get. Our plan is for the people that see us gossip enough until Aaron and Sapnap find out about us, we don't want them to see us together. Lola thinks that'll make them angry enough to approach us about it, it'll grab their attention quicker than us just telling them we're together.
I agreed to everything Lola said we do, I didn't have many ideas on what to do or change. The only thing I said was that we can't kiss, she agreed with me. But then we both agreed to share small pecks with each other at parties because then people wouldn't believe us. We assume that everyone knows i'm not a public person, but everyone knows Lola loves to show off the relationships she's in. I've seen her in the corner at parties with guys before, she wants people to see her. She wants Aaron to see her.
Although we're very different, we have many similarities. I'm okay with crushing in silence, I never want attention on myself but Lola, she can't stay silent. She needs him to know how she feels, she needs him to want her always. They've been on and off for the past three years, I can't imagine what that does to someones head. I can't imagine how confused she must feel all the time. She's never told me the truth to why they don't just stay together, she always finds a way to change the subject.
"I'll see you at lunch?" Lola looks up at me with a smirk.
"Of course" My thumb runs over her knuckles.
She kisses my cheek and I close my eyes, imagining she's Sapnap. Without any other words we walk away from each other. I spot Aarons usual friend group staring at me as I walk, I do my best to ignore them. I knew when I agreed to fake date Lola there would be a lot of attention on me. I can't let it bother me. I want this to work out, I want Sapnap to know how I feel. I just can't be the one to tell him, he needs to like me first. I walk into the classroom and find Harmony sitting in the seat next to my usual seat. I make my way over and she waves at me.
"Karl!" She squeaks. I smile back. "How are you?"
"I'm alright" I sit down next to her, feeling her eyes on me as I move. "What's up?"
"So, I heard a bit of a rumour". Words move fast. "Is it true?"
"Is what true?" I act oblivious.
"The party!" she playfully nudges me. "Nick told me you're hosting a party soon".
"Oh!" I laugh. "Yea, I guess I am".
She opens her mouth to say something but is interrupted by the teacher starting the lesson. As the teacher begins passing out work sheets the door flies open, Aaron walks into the room with an angry look on his face. He looks down at the floor as he walks to his seat, but once he's at the chair he looks up and turns to me. He glares at me for a few seconds before sliding out his chair and sits down.
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"So he was really angry?" Lola grins before taking a sip of her juice. I just nod my head. "This is brilliant, Karl! It's only been a day and Aaron is already pissed".
"I guess" I shrug as I pick at the grass we're sitting on. "Have you seen Sapnap?"
"Nope, I heard he isn't here today. Harmony said he had some thing on with his family" she shrugs. "I think she mentioned a funeral".
"Oh yea, he's going to a distant cousins funeral today" I talk out loud as I remember the message he sent me last week. How could I forget he's there today?
Lola begins talking more about Aaron, I pretend to listen but i'm just sitting here still picking out grass. I've noticed that recently i've been dealing with a lot of regret, and right now i'm feeling a lot of regret. It's the first day of our deal but I already know it isn't working out for me the same way it is for Lola. I always knew she was going to be more successful in this, but now i'm scared that once Aaron does give her attention she'll quit this immediately to be with him, leaving me with no Sapnap. And probably no more of her. I keep getting this feeling that she's only friends with me now because she isn't with Aaron, and all of her other friends have boyfriends so she just feels left out. I feel terrible for thinking this of her, but i'm sure everyone that knows me would understand why I feel this way. I've only ever been Sapnaps shadow, no one gives me attention, they give him attention that sometimes involves me.
I feel a buzz in my pocket and pull it out to see Sapnap calling me. I immediately swipe to answer and I quickly get up to move away from Lola.
"Karl?" I hear his voice crack.
"Hey, what's going on?" I frown even though he can't see me.
"Karl, can you please come over?" I go to reply but he stops me, "I know you're in school and i'm so sorry, but I need you".
"Of course, i'll leave now".
I run back over to Lola to grab my things. I leave her with no explanation and make my way out of school, not bothering to sign out properly. I can just let Mr. Mavric know tomorrow and he'll write up a letter for me like he usually does when I need to leave early. Sapnap needs me.
He needs me.
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Fanfiction"Karl" he says softly, making me turn to face him. "Do you ever feel different?" he asks, without looking at me. "Different in what way?" he turns to me, looking me in the eyes.
