Karl Jacobs
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Lola sits in front of me, her hair tied back into a neat fishtail braid that her cousins done for her. In front of her is a sheet of paper filled with sentences, and right at the top is my name written in pink ink. My leg bounces with anxiety as I wait for her to say something, she has a whole script ready for this and I have nothing. I can't think of anything to say.
"I want to start by saying" she pauses to clear her throat before looking back to me, "i'm so sorry, Karl. The party was- A lot happened that night, I didn't mean for it to become something that would hurt you. I was selfish and I didn't think about the consequences of kissing Percy, I take full responsibility for it all. I never should've kissed him while I was in a relationship with you".
"It was fake" I remind her, but I instantly regret it when I see the look on her face. "But it's okay, I accept your apology and I forgive you. I know you didn't do it to be evil, the heart wants what it wants" I shrug. I'm not lying to her, after thinking about it for so long I realised I had no anger or hatred for Lola, i'm not even upset with her. Any negativity I feel is directed to Percy, I just want Lola back in my life now.
"I don't want you to just be okay with this" she frowns. "Karl, I done something terrible. I never ever want to hurt you and the fact that I did has been killing me inside! I want you to be mad, I want you to say something you'll regret later, I want you to treat me like you'd treat Percy, please" she begs.
"No" I shake my head. "Lola, i'm honestly not upset with you. I'm not mad at you. I'm not going to sit here and act like I am just because you want me to be, I want to move on from all of this. I want us to be good again, I miss you".
"I miss you too" her voice cracks, "but Karl, I can't sit here and act like i'm happy with you. You hurt me too".
"What?" I frown, feeling very confused.
"You said you liked me, Karl" she wipes the tear that slips from her eye. "You never told me you liked me, you didn't even give me any signs".
"Lola, i'm sorry but i'm not sure if I ever did like you. I was so confused, and I missed Nick so much. You were always there for me, of course there's a part of me that liked you" I speak honestly but she just turned away from me.
"You should've told me, Karl. I put myself through hell waiting for you to notice how much I actually liked you, God I was doing everything I could just for your attention and you still never noticed me. I knew you were using me, I just thought maybe-" she shakes her head before continuing. "I just wish you would've told me, maybe we could've taken a risk and have been a real couple".
"Lola" I speak softly as I reach out to grab her hand, "we both know we never would've worked out".
"I know" her voice cracks again. "But I just wish we could've at least had the chance to try".
"I'm sorry" I look into her eyes as I say it, I want her to know that I really mean it. "I'm sorry I never noticed your attempts or signs, I was being so selfish. I don't want this to come between us, I still need you Lola".
"I need you too" a small smile creeps onto her face as she wipes away a few tears. "Thank you for listening to me".
"Why wouldn't I?" I frown. She stays quiet, staring down at our hands that are still holding onto each other. "Lola?"
"You know Percy and I broke up right?" she lets go of my hand as she speaks, my mouth falls open making an 'O' shape as I wait for her to continue. "The day after the fight he broke up with me because I told him I still wanted to be your friend".
"Lola-" she doesn't let me speak.
"I-I let him do it, Karl. The way he was talking about you was crushing me, it reminded me too much of Aaron and I don't want that. I know that i'm better than both of those boys" she looks at me. "Weirdly you constantly rejecting me has made me learn more about myself".
"Oh" I laugh softly. "You have no idea how proud I am".
"Yea, yea" she laughs with me. "Thank you" we both smile at each other before standing up from the table we're sitting at in the park. I pull her in for a hug, both of us still letting out small laughs. "You know you're my best friend, right?"
"Yea, you're my platonic best friend too".
We leave the park together and I walk her home. When we get to her house I spot an unfamiliar car sitting out the front. There's a grin on her face as she runs over to the car while I stand back waiting to see who it is. Henry steps out of the car and pulls Lola into a bear hug. I make my way over, waiting to see if he notices me.
"Karl!" Henry cheers when his eyes finally find their way to me. "Do you like it?" he nods to his car.
"Yea, it's nice" I stare at the car then look back to him, "how are you?"
"I'm good" he smiles. "How are you after everything?"
"I'm alright" I say honestly. "Are we good?"
"Of course" he pauses. "Just between us three, I always liked you both more than I liked Percy" Lola laughs loudly.
"I won't be telling Noah that" Lola jokes with Henry. I smile at the sight of them being so friendly and comfortable with each other.
"Is Noah coming over too?" I ask.
"He said he might" Lola shrugs.
"He is" Henry confirms. "He called me on the way here, he's just dropping something off the Percy and then making his way here".
We all walk into Lolas house and sit around while we wait for Noah to arrive. When he walks in everything feels right again. I'm surrounded by my friends and we're enjoying each others company. There's no secrets, no lies, just us having a good time together.
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Sweater Weather - Karlnap (au)
Fanfiction"Karl" he says softly, making me turn to face him. "Do you ever feel different?" he asks, without looking at me. "Different in what way?" he turns to me, looking me in the eyes.
