UNFORGETTABLE MEMORIES OF YESTERDAY

23

"Am I?" I ask again, still crying.

Am I ? Am I already enough?....because I think I'm not.

"Yes you are" he said, brushing my hair now with his hand. "I love you"

"I love you more than you do" I gave him a soft kiss.

"Don't mind of what my father said earlier" I nodded though marami pa akong dapat itanong sa kanya but I want him to explain own his own, I want him to explain without my question, gusto ko na kusa siyang magpaliwanag sakin.

I hope that the words of his Dad earlier won't hunt me everyday, I don't  want to overthink again. I hope it won't bother me everyday, every moment when we're together and specially when I met again his Dad.

He held my hand and open the door for me, he wants me to sleep on his condo. I wipe my tears before putting on the seatbelt. Tahimik lang ako buong byahe and Colt was too focused on the road.

I open the window of the car at sinandal ko ang mukha ko ron para tingnan ang mga bahay na nadadaanan namin.

The slight pain I felt was still on my chest. I didn't bother my mind to think about what happened earlier in their house but it keeps on popping on my head, pilit kung kalimutan yun dahil alam kung mas sasaktan ko lang ang sarili ko kapag inisip ko pa yon.

When we arrived at the lobby, he open the door for me again. Sabay kaming pumasok sa elevator at sabay rin lumakad papunta sa condo niya. He opened the door.

When I entered, I told him na maliligo muna ako. I let the water flow on my skin, I close my eyes and rested 30 minutes on the bathtub.

My eyes were tired, I want to rest but I'm hoping that Colt will explain to me what the heck is going on before I sleep tonight.

I brush my teeth and do my skincare. I went outside, wearing a robe. I left some clothes here and also underwear kaya wala ng problema. I went to the restroom again, I changed my robe into a pair of light blue pajamas.

When I went outside again Colt was now lying on the bed with his body was half covered with the comforter. His eyes were close so I think his sleeping at naka army green na rin siya na sweater, medyo basa pa ang buhok so I think naligo na sya. Umupo ako sa bed at sinandal ang ulo sa headboard.

I'm not yet sleepy so stood up to get milk but he held my wrist which cause me to fall back on the bed. I feel his arms crawling up on my waist. I just looked up on the ceiling.

"Where are you going?" he asked.

"I'm going to drink milk, baka makatulong yun para makatulog ako" I said not looking on him.

"What's bothering you, love?" he said and open his eyes. I didn't respond. "Margaux was the daughter of my Dad's friend" he suddenly talk which made me turn my gaze on him, his now staring at me.

"Napagpagkasunduan nila, my Dad and his friend na ipakasal kaming dalawa ni Margaux, that's when I was in 1st year college, they plan everything and I keep on agreeing though ayoko kay Margaux, she got that attitude na gusto niya lagi lang kamin magkasama, pwede bayon? at wala na akong magawa because I can't disobey my Dad"

Kung ako ang nasa posisyon niya, siguro ayoko rin kay Margaux, alangan naman kahit san kami pumunta dapat magkasama, parang buntot lang ganon?