Abandoned Heart [COMPLETED]

39: Letting Go

Chapter 39

The whole trip was fantastic! Being with my family and being in a great place like Baguio was definitely an unforgettable experience. But unfortunately, the words that my brother told me crept into me.

I still remember every word that he said and it was still haunting me. A week passed after our trip and I can't help but to overthink. He really got a point, and it made me think about it for a long time.

Plus the fact, thag he never messaged me again. I guess he found someone new huh?

"Hey! You're spacing out again."

"I'm sorry. Did you say something?" I asked Briella. We're inside a cafe near the church.

"Sobrang dami mong iniisip. Kanina pa kita tinatanong kung aalis na ba tayo papunta sa church." She sighed as if giving up on something. I raised my brow to urge her to speak.

"Look, I know there's something in that head of yours. Come on, spill it."

I opened my mouth to say something, then closed it again as I was struggling to find the right words to explain what I feel.

"Let's just go to the church first. Let's talk after, shall we?" She just nodded with what I said and took a sip from her cookies and cream frappe. I also finished my iced coffee and stood up so we could get going.

"Hi! Welcome to our church!" masiglang bati sa amin ng mga dalagang nagaabang sa bukana ng church na in-attend-an namin.

We smiled to their warm welcome. They asked us our name and they gave us their names as well as they gave us a hug. We saw our old classmate inside the church and he waved his hand to us.

"Enjoy lang kayo! Lalo na mamaya na mas mafifeel niyo ang presensya ng Lord," saad ng kaklase namin.

They lead us to the left corner and at the second row in front so we can listen carefully. I'm a bit nervous and excited as well on what I might get from this one.

"You sure you're okay?" Briella asked me, she held my hand and softly squeezed it as if telling me that she's there for me.

"Yep. I'm good. Let's just wait for this to start," I said roaming my eyes around.

The people at the church settled down as the lights were turned off. It was replaced by different colors of spotlights. There was also a countdown flashed in the screen together with the background music of a joyful song.

After a few minutes of the countdown, everyone was invited to stand-up and join the praise and worship. The first song was a joyful one. I clapped my hands together with the song as I sing to praise and worship the Lord. Then after that, a solemn song was played.

I raised my hand and closed my eyes like the others did. A warm feeling spread around my body that it also made it through my eyes. Still closing my eyes, I felt the tears gushing down my face. At that moment, I knew I am sinful. I forgot the Lord and focused with all of my problems. I stood up myself and tried to be strong but I forgot that the real strength only comes from Him. I cried harder as realizations hit me hard.

Good thing Briella had a handkerchief with het. After the praise and worship, she handed me that to wipe my tears and she just enveloped her arms around my waist then she slightly tapped my back, consoling me.

We listened to a testimony then proceeded to the tithes and offerings. After that, the pastor stood up in front and started his topic. A bible verse flashed in the screen, a very familiar one to me.

"For I know the plans I have for you," says the Lord. Plans to prosper you and not to harm you. Plans to give you a future and a hope. Jeremiah 29:11."