I'm broken *completed*

You have Battle Scars

Natsu's POV

I woke up and felt too lazy to get up. I tried to go back to sleep but couldn't. I got mad and threw a pillow on the floor. I felt Gray move and he raised an eyebrow. "You good?" He asked. "I'm fine." I said coldly. "No you're not." He said. "I am." I said angrily. "I know when you're sad or angry Natsu." He whispered. I got out of bed and got dressed. I ran to the lake and sat on the grass. I felt really tired but didn't know why. I went back home and saw Gray looking worried.

"Are you okay now?" He asked. I nodded my head and he smiled. "Do you want anything to eat?" "I'm not hungry." I whispered and went into the bedroom. I saw Happy fly towards Gray and they started talking. I closed the door and layed on the bed thinking. You're fat. Not you again. Go kill yourself. No one likes you. You're a crybaby. Gray is only with you to look like a nice person. You haven't cut in a while. Maybe you should just give in and do it already. I looked at the desk and saw a rubber band. Perfect. I picked it up and put it around my wrist. I started snapping it on my wrist and waited for the urge to cut to go away.

Gray's POV

"Is Natsu alright?" Happy asked as he came into the kitchen. "I don't know..." I whispered. Happy flew around the kitchen and Luna followed him. I smiled and grabbed some food.

Natsu's POV

I took the band off and put it on the side. I grabbed some paper and a pen. I drew an arm and grabbed a red pencil. I drew lines on the arm and made them look like they were bleeding. I coloured everything and put it next to my arm. I scrunched it up and threw it in the bin. I grabbed another piece of paper and started writing on it.

'It's so hard. I'm trying to find ways to not cut. No one understands my pain and I don't want anyone to. It's horrible and I don't want anyone else to go through this. I feel like a burden. I feel like Gray is annoyed that he has to look after me. I do nothing for him but he does everything for me. I want to do something but I'm too scared to ask. I just want to be helpful. Whenever I go to the guild I get overwhelmed. I can't have a normal conversation anyone without feeling sad. This morning I just wanted to sleep but couldn't so I got mad. And now I'm not hungry when I should be. I think it's just getting worse. And the voices in my head came back. Telling me to cut. I hate it. I just want to be normal. Why can't I be like everyone else? I used to be so happy but now I'm just a depressed idiot that no one cares about. I just had to get that off my chest.'

I put the note on the side and jumped out the window. I ran to the guild and could hear music. I opened the doors and they were listening to music. I walked towards Mira and she smiled. "We're taking it in turns for the music, so now it's your turn to pick, what song do you want?" She asked. "Can I pick whatever I want?" I asked. She smiled and nodded her head. "Do I wanna know by arctic monkeys." I said and she searched for it. "Is this it?" She asked and I nodded my head. "It should play after this song." She said and I nodded my head. "Thanks." I said and walked off. I went towards Gajeel.

"Hey Natsu." He said. "Hi." I said back and Levy smiled at me. "How many liked songs do you have on spotify?" He asked. "About 200." I answered. He looked shocked. "Yeah, Natsu won." He said. "Won what?" I asked. "I'm seeing who has the most liked songs in the guild and it's you." He said. I went on my phone and checked the exact number. "216." I said and Gajeel raised an eyebrow. "I have 216 liked songs on spotify." I said and he was even more shocked than before. I heard do I wanna know come on and I smiled.

"Did you pick this song?" Gajeel asked. I nodded my head and he looked at the speaker. "It sounds cool." He said and I started lip syncing it. Once the song had finished I decided to go home but on the way there a kid hugged me. "You have battle scars." They said. I looked at their parents and they seemed sad. "My sister had battle scars and told me to hug anyone else who has them." The kid said and let go of me. I went to the kids height. "She also said that people who have battle scars are just angels who want to go home." He said. "And what happened to your sister?" I asked. "She went home." He said and I could see his parents crying. I looked down and looked back at the kid. "Don't go home." He said. "I won't." I whispered and he ran back to his parents. I stood up and walked away. When I got home I walked through the door and closed it. I felt tears go down my face and I fell to my knees. I saw Gray get up and he ran towards me. He put his hand on my shoulder and I wiped the tears away.

"What's wrong?" He asked. I took a shaky breath and looked at Gray. "A kid hugged me and said that I have battle scars and his sister had them and that she was an angel who wanted to go home and she went home and then he told me to not go home." I cried and Gray pulled me into his chest. I don't understand why that had made me feel so sad. I rested my head in Gray's chest and he let me cry. "If a kid can notice something like that then why can't the guild?" I asked. "The guild has watched you become like this, they just think that your fake smile is your normal smile." Gray explained. I saw Happy fly in the room and he seemed to be worried. "I want them to notice but I don't want to tell them." I cried. After a while I went to bed and fell asleep.