I'm broken *completed*

Natsu...

Erza's POV

I woke up and went to the guild. I noticed that Natsu hadn't arrived yet so I went to check on him with Wendy and Gajeel. When we got there we knocked on the door but got no answer. We could hear scratching at it so we opened it and Luna rushed outside. She rushed back in so we followed her. She took us to the bathroom and we saw Natsu on the floor with a bottle of vodka in his hand. In his other hand was his phone which was cracked. I took it out of his hand and Gajeel did the same with the vodka. (I keep wanting to spell it like vokda but I can't lol) I put his phone on the table and I saw Gajeel put the vodka on the counter. I smiled at him and he smiled back. I then went back into the bathroom and tapped Natsu's shoulder. He didn't wake up and I gently shaked him. He opened his eyes and covered them with his arm to block out the light.

"Did you drink that vodka?" Gajeel asked and Natsu nodded his head. He moved his arm away from his eyes and rushed to the toilet. He threw up and I rubbed circles on his back. I looked at Wendy and she raised an eyebrow. "Check on the dog." I ordered to her and she nodded her head. She walked out of the room and I saw Gajeel follow her. "You alright?" I asked and Natsu looked at me. He nodded his head and sat down. He leaned his back against the wall and brang his knees to his chest.

"When I ask if you're alright I mean are you physically okay and mentally okay." I said and he looked down. He sighed and rested his chin on his knees. "I-I don't know how to feel." He whispered sadly. "Like one minute I feel angry and then I feel like shit and then I just want to die." He said. "I'll always be here if you need someone to talk to." I said and Wendy walked back in the room with Gajeel. "Please don't bottle things inside." Gajeel said as he sat down next to him. "The only person I can talk to is Gray, but he can't listen." Natsu whispered sadly. I could see tears start to form in his eyes and Gajeel wrapped his arm around his shoulder.

"We'll listen." He said and Natsu smiled sadly. "If you need help then please come to one of us." Wendy said in a shy tone. Natsu nodded his head and decided to go to sleep. We all went to the guild and told Master about what had happened. He told us to keep an eye on him for the next few weeks.

5 hours later

Natsu's POV

I woke up and realised that I was hugging my pillow. I sat up and walked into the bathroom. I sat on the floor and tried not to think about the sharp knife in the kitchen. I gave in and picked it up. I was going to cut but then remembered what Wendy had said. 'If you need help then please come to one of us.' I put the knife to my skin but just couldn't do it. I walked out of the house and locked (I accidentally put licked lol, I don't think anyone really cares but oh well, I find it funny) the door behind me.

I can't really go to Wendy's with a knife. (Yeah go to a restaurant Natsu) I couldn't go to Gajeel's either since they have a kid there. I guess it would have to be Erza's. She lives with Jellal though but I know I will cut if I don't go somewhere. I started heading to Erza's house and when I got there I waited a few seconds before knocking at the door. Jellal answered it and seemed quite worried as to why I was holding a knife. "Where's Erza?" I asked in a sad tone. "Why? You planning on killing her or something?" He tried to sound like he was joking but it clearly failed as he was now rubbing the back of his head.

"Just let me see Erza." I said and he let me in. He closed the door behind me and I saw a worried looking Erza looking at the door. I walked towards her and gave her the knife. She took it out of my hand and put it on the counter in the kitchen. She then hugged me and I burst into tears. I hugged back and could see a jealous looking Jellal in the corner of my eye. I didn't really care much. I just wanted everything to end. I want Gray to wake up and if he doesn't then I don't care about life anymore. After a while we split the hug and Erza looked at Jellal.

"Jellal, don't look so jealous." Erza said and he laughed. "I'll just go." I said sadly and turned around. When I tried to walk off Erza grabbed my wrist so I turned around to look at her. "Stay for a bit." She said and I smiled. "I don't want you doing anything to yourself." She whispered and I nodded my head. She told me to sit on the sofa so I did. Jellal sat next to her to make sure we didn't do anything. It was sorta funny how protective he's being.

"Can you show me your arms?" Erza asked and I sighed. I rolled my sleeves up and she looked at my arms. I looked at Jellal and he was shocked. "H-How did you get those?" He asked. "I did them to myself." I whispered and he was even more shocked. Erza nodded her head so I rolled my sleeves back down. There were no new scars so I didn't really care if she saw or not. After about an hour I went home and fell asleep. I forgot to feed Luna...