To Fall Apart

Chapter 35

Chapter 35

"Andy!"

I can't move. I was too taken a back that I cannot tear off my eyes of him. He was looking at the sea while talking someone on the phone.

Our distance is enough for him not to notice me but also enough for me to recognize him. Kumunot ang noo ko habang pinagmamasdan ko kung totoo ba sya hanggang sa may humawak sa braso ko.

I jumped a bit because of shock. Nakakunot ang noo ni Amara habang nakatingin sa akin. I sighed deeply.

"Are you okay?" she asked worriedly.

Bumaling ako sa kung saan nakatayo si Van kanina pero umawang ang labi ko ng makitang wala na sya doon. My eyes lingered on the people moving out of the venue to see if he was there but he's not.

My heart pounded so fast that I feel it's breaking. Amara touched my elbow softly.

"Andy?" she asked. Nung lumingon ako sa kanya ay nakatingin na din sya sa kung saan ako nakatitig kanina.

She looked at me confused. I swallowed hard then I smiled weakly.

"I-I'm fine." my voice stutter.

"Are you sure? Namumutla ka."

"Puyat lang ako." sabi ko at ngumiti. She seems not convinced though.

Pumunta kami sa reception hall kung saan kausap na ni Arielle yung organizer para sa pagkanta namin mamaya. Lumilipad yung utak ko sa nangyari kanina. I am contemplating whether what I saw is just hallucination.

It is better to think of it that way.

He's not here. He can't be here.

Matagal na syang nanirahan sa abroad. We lost contact. I don't know any news about him and it is so impossible for us to meet in a place that both don't have significance to us.

I can still remember a week after I gave birth to Giddeon. I woke up seeing him watching me. My heart hurt when I saw his eyes. I cried because I've been aching to see him and then he's there.

He leaned in and kissed me in my forehead.

"I'm sorry." he whispered and I closed my eyes tightly while feeling my heart clenched. And then when I opened it, he's already gone and I cried harder.

So maybe, I was just mistaken. He's not the guy I saw on the shore. It is impossible. He can't be in the same place as I am. Especially with Giddeon.

"Andy, ikaw na." bulong ni Arielle. Tumango ako.

We already played three songs. Those songs are the songs that is very significant to the couple. But I am assigned to sing their break up song. At first, I am confused why the hell did they want to hear their break up song.

But then, maybe... It's a reminder. That after all, second chance exists. And luckily they had it.

The MC told the visitors the history of the song while I make myself comfortable in front. My eyes search for the crowd. And though I know that I'm just hallucinating awhile ago, my heart sank with the thought of him being not here.

I sighed when they played the song and I closed my eyes.

I want you to stay, never go away from me