To Fall Apart

Chapter 18

Chapter 18

Mabilis akong lumapit kay Arielle para ibigay sa kanya ang mic. We still have another song to sing but I cannot perform after seeing Van walked away.

"I'll follow him." I said to her and she nodded. I'm glad that she understands.

Hindi na ako nag-aksaya ng panahon at mabilis akong tumakbo pababa ng stage. I don't bother going in their table to ask because that would be a waste of time. Lumabas ako ng resto bar at luminga linga sa paligid para hanapin sya.

My eyes start to get blur because of the tears forming on it. I want to hit my chest because it hurts so much. It hurts that he'll still leave after my indirect confession.

"Van!" I shouted to look for him.

Nakita ko syang naglalakad papunta sa kotse nya. Umiling iling ako at mabilis na tumakbo para habulin sya.

"Van..." I said while following him. I know he can hear me. But he didn't stop. He continued walking away.

"Van naman. Let's talk." I said almost begging. Hindi sya nakinig kaya tumakbo ako papunta sa harap nya para pigilan sya.

Parehas kaming nagulat dalawa ng muntik na kaming matumba dahil sa pagsulpot ko sa harap nya. My eyes widened with our closeness. I felt his hand on my waist supporting me. Mabilis ang paghinga ko dahil sa kaba. Kumunot ang noo nya ng punasan nya ang mga luha ko.

I bit my lip and swallowed hard.

"Where are you going?" I asked, my voice shaking. His lips parted and he muttered a curse.

"Fuck." he whispered miserably.

Umayos ako ng tayo at pinunasan ko na din ang mga luha ko. I want us to talk.

"Your leaving for New York?" I asked casually like he didn't see me cry, or I didn't sang that song. He didn't answer so I took a glance at him. I caught him staring at me.

"You stared like I'll be gone if you don't." I said.  He sighed and lean his back in his car.

"I'm afraid you might." he said and my smirk faded. I swallowed hard.

"Van... I want to say something." I said gathering all my guts. He didn't answer again. Damn, the silence he's giving is killing me.

"Atleast before you leave. Let's talk. It's not that we weren't best friends." I said.

Mabilis syang lumingon sa akin. He sighed deeply and hardly nod. Like what I'm going to say would devastate him. And I felt sorry for making him feel that way.

"I always love being your best friend. But I'm starting to hate it now." he said honestly. I bit my lip and looked away.

"I'm sorry." I said. He moved beside me and I saw him smiling.

"Don't feel sorry. It's not your fault." he said and I saw him pulling his keys out of his pocket. I panicked when I saw him preparing to leave.

"What time is your flight?" I asked.

He licked his lip before answering me.

"1:30 am."

I took a glance on my watch and I saw that it's already 11 pm. He should be leaving now. But I cannot let him go without saying him the main reason why I followed him.