Hey guys
I know everyone of you heard about the breaking news I don't know if it's true but my emotions are in such a very low point right now. All my hopes and faith were gone. The reason I really love this ship is because they gave hope that love is love, and the faith to those who is hoping to be acknowledge, that why a news like this is very down fall for me😭😭😭😭😭😭😭 (don't get me wrong, I salute gd, and if he make jennie happy I'll support and respect that) I was just so hurt. 🤣
I know you haven't heard from me for awhile, I didn't stop writing and I don't want to stop. Even I had few readers it didn't make me stop imaging a plot about jenlisa story. I really like to imagine things about them. I wasn't a blink before but I know kpop exist, i knew few song way back but I'm not a fan, not until I accompanied my niece in one of her friends b'day party. The theme is blackpink and they had this dance production with the music of kill this love, well I enjoy it in the party but forgot it when we reach home. Life continues but my 6 year old niece ask me one day to play kill this love because she want to dance, I don't have the song in my playlist so I searched it in youtube, when playing random videos from YT I saw a vid with a thumbnail jenlisa is real, got me curious and watch it, that's the start why I am here (thank you jenlisatv and jenlisa sreal daily) I saw chemistry, I feel something, and I starting to dig some analysis and teas videos just to hype my boring life. Watching them made me realize how talented the girls and why on earth I haven't know them before so I became a blink,( yeah people, I became a blink because of Jenlisa) It happened when jenkai issue were cooling down so I wasn't experience the first heartbreak that the shipper did (lucky me) but now. Damnit! I feel my heart was scattered into pieces, my relationship is intact and happy but I feel I was so broken hearted. My heart aches that I haven't feel in my real relationship. Why? Because I was so In love with the ship, my bad. My delusional mind made my heart believe that they were real.
Well I know most of the haters and antis will tell me it's your delusion and false hope fault. Yes ofcorse, I won't blame anybody, I won't blame the video maker or the page admin, or the people who dig evidence and teas and posted it in social media just to feed my delusional mind and hoping heart, this is not their fault, they were just the same as me, believing, hoping, loving... I won't blame them, cause I will blame it to the one who is involved! ( I'm sorry, I was stating a fact here) with all Thier fan service drama (don't get me wrong, I wasn't mad at them, I was just stating what I'm felling right now) there giving the ship too much to hope and to believe because of what? They knew about the shipping and they knew how crazy the ship was, maybe that's one of the reason why they were so off with each other sometimes but when Thier on the mood there were a tease, well teasing is tolerable but what about the unexpected, the unexplainable things, ( when I say unexplainable things only shippers and believer could understand so if your just a regular readers and not a jenlisa shipper just continue reading 😁) why did they have to do that,😭 to make their fans happy? Ok they did, and what about after, like for what's happening right now? I don't know I can't understand, I know alot of you will said if you really love them will just support them. So they don't love me, that's why they stop to make me happy? (Hehhe) I am a fan, I wasn't the one I know, if I stop loving them there still millions out there, and this were the REALITY will BITE. We fans are there BUSINESS, they feed us because they need us, they gave those content because they knew that make us stay, like our feelings are Thier bargain. 😭 I'm sorry again, I can't stop realising the fact that in this world that full of lies the only truth is HURT. They want us to STAY, and enable to do that, their not giving us just thier talent but all that what we expect them to be. ( I'm feel so sorry for the girls, I realized also, maybe sometimes they feel so awkward about it but they have to do it) so what's point? I just wish they didn't, how I wish they just sing and dance, how I wish they didn't even acknowledge the Jenlisa thing, how I wish that Jennie didn't ride the fans craziness over the ship, how I wish, but if well, what happen just happened, Jennie and Lisa didn't force me, I was just hurt 🤣.
Sorry guys, as I said I was just hurt. But it doesn't mean I hate them, I will still be a blink and support ot4 till the end.
As a jenlisa shipper? Yes, even now my hope and believe is gone, I will continue to ship them. I love this ship, cause I love them both. They make me realize something but it didn't make me gave up on them as a person. I still believe in Thier talents and maybe that will I say I am a blink not because of Jenlisa but because they were all talented. 😭 Why it's so hurtful, my jenlisa heart. 💔💔💔💔💔💔💔
