LOVE IS GONE - is this an end for us? (junkyu x reader)

13

“she so did, didn’t she?” you say, more to yourself than to him. rubbing your head a little, you apologize to junkyu for whatever she said; not expecting your mom would say that to junkyu.

“it’s okay. my mom does that too every time i call since then” he says it so casually that it doesn’t immediately register to you what he’s saying. you’re sure junkyu doesn’t realize what he’s saying, either.

“i’m sorry… what?” you say, so shocked that you’re calm.

“ah…” he coughs a little, realizing his mistake, then scratches the back of his head. “i wasn’t supposed to say that, was i?”

closing your eyes as you lean on the car window, you can feel the stress filling you in.

“hey, don’t mind it too much, okay?” junkyu says, his hand about to reach yours out of reflex before he pulls it back, hoping you didn’t notice.

“you know how moms are. i’m sure they will get over it eventually,” he tries to reassure you, his eyes still focused on the road. “at least don’t think too much about it today. try to have fun, okay? i will try to be out of your way if it makes you more comfortable.”

you don’t say anything back. not knowing whether you’d be comfortable either way.

~~

your saviour comes in the form of sua, your ray of sunshine lee sua.

she is the next person to be picked up and you’re glad she keeps on talking about how excited she is about this little trip, and you can’t help but smile a little at her energy. junkyu just nods along to what she says, but sua doesn’t mind.

when she runs out of things to say, she asks to connect the car’s audio to her phone and she starts doing a karaoke session. you know she’s sparing you and junkyu the awkward silence.

both you and junkyu make a silent promise inside to treat her something one of these days.

forty minutes later, all of you has arrived at the amusement park. the sight of it is enough to lift your spirit, the thought of your and junkyu's mothers slowly getting away even though it’s still there.

you grin a little as you see sua trying her best not to jump up and down (because hyunsuk is holding her own by the shoulders from behind). she seems so happy that you can’t help but feel the same way.

“let’s go?” soojin says, a wide smile gracing her face. you nod at her, latching yourself into her arm as you line up at the entrance.

“you’re excited too, aren’t you?” she says, looking at you.

you nod at her, already glad that you didn’t decide to cancel. “i don’t remember the last time i went to an amusement park? probably during high school?”

“oh? that’s pretty long ago? did you not go to any amusement park with…” soojin suddenly trails off, just then realizing what she’s about to say.

junkyu chuckles from behind, making you and soojin turn to him in confusion. there’s a playful grin planted in his face.

gosh he’s so handsome it’s not funny.

“she’s scared of them, like, 75% of the rides so we never went,” he snickers, making you glare at him.

“and you’re not?” you scoff, frowning at him.

he just shrugs, hand slinging around jihoon's shoulder.

“i am, but i will ride it as long as i’m not by myself anyway.”

you just roll your eyes in return, not minding him. but you can’t deny the way you get a little relaxed, cheeks a bit warm after the interaction; bantering with junkyu has always been so easy. it’s probably one of things you miss the most from him, but you’re not going to let anyone know that.

soojin is quick to make a beeline to the highest rollercoaster she can see, her hand gripping yours as she pulls you with her.

“oh, no, no, no, no. i’m not riding this as my first ride” you pull your hand back, shaking your head repeatedly. “you guys go up and i will wait here. i’ll just… take videos and make sure your stuffs are safe.”

soojin pouts a little, still holding on to you though her grip loosens. “it’s going to be fun, though. and i don’t want you standing here alone.”

“not for me. it’s okay i can wait for you here; you guys just go. it’s not going to take that long anyways” you say, glancing at the fairly short line to the ride. they might have to wait for about 10 minutes, you predict.

“but…”

“i’ll stay here with her,” junkyu suddenly says, sitting on the bench behind you.

the older girl looks at him suspiciously, not sure about leaving you with him (which is a bit weird, you think; remembering she makes him pick you up first).

before she can say anything, jihoon takes her arm gently, telling her they should get in line now if she doesn’t want to line for long. “just let them be. junkyu is probably too scared and just saying that as a way to get out.”

fhe taller guy just sticks his tongue out childishly, not denying his fear of height.

after everyone hands you and junkyu their small bags (and hyunsuk, just his phone), they make their way to line up. sua tells you to take a video of them and you just smile as you wave your hand, signalling her to look in font, her phone already in your hand.

“thank you,” junkyu suddenly says, his gaze locked at the towering ride before him.

you don’t say anything, just stare at him curiously as you don’t know what he’s referring to.

“for not being as awkward as this morning.” he looks back at you, making you think about the last time you were eye to eye with him.

“we…” he had said, his hand still holding yours, as if asking you to stay. What irony. “one day we will be able to be friends like we used to again, right?”

you looked up to him to meet his pleading eyes, yours blurry with tears.

“i don’t know.” You shook your head, answering honestly.

“shouldn’t have said that.” you can hear junkyu mumble to himself, bringing you back to reality.

he sighs again, messing up his own hair before telling you to be ready with sua’s phone. “look, they’re about to get on the ride.”

“thank you for not being awkward, too, junkyu,” you say softly, eyes busy on the phone so you don’t have to look at him.

and he’s kind of glad you missed the stupid look he probably has on his face because it’s been so long since you address him by his name. junkyu smiles to himself, then, his hand touching yours for a few seconds to help you get a better angle.

his hand is still as warm as you remember it to be.

junkyu is glad you’re too focused on recording the video that you don’t see him trying to cover his grin like an idiot, his lower lip almost bleed from his own teeth.

~~

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