I Fell In Love With A Vampire 2 [BTS Taehyung fanfic]

Chapter Thirty Two

Run away 

Sunny POV

It's been a week since I killed Jinhwan, but it feels like it was yesterday. The guilt only gets worse everyday and I don't know how to control it. I began getting nightmares of that night a couple days ago, I wake up in the middle of the night drenched in sweat. In the dream I could taste Taehyung's blood in my mouth, and Jinhwan's heart was in my hand. I could also hear the innocent girl from the woods and the small boy's voices screaming in the background, along with everyone else I've killed. The dreams have only gotten worse, and every reminder of the night I killed Jinhwan makes it worse.

I feel guilty that I killed him, and a part of me feels like I shouldn't have. All Jinhwan really wanted was a second chance at life, and he found it with me. And despite all of my vampire issues, I found it with him. We worked for each other, and I felt so happy with him. When he opened up about his side of the story, I wish I could turn back time. Because I knew he didn't deserve this but there was nothing I could've done.  

This causes me to stay home, I haven't gone to school since the incident. Most days I can't even get out of my room. I've been hungry for blood, but I haven't hunted for it. The idea of killing another human makes me feel guilty without even doing it. Uni has been texted and calling checking up on me but I haven't responded. Not only do I not have the energy anymore, I just don't want her to get the wrong message. I was vulnerable that night, and she was there supporting me. I made myself forget about what she did because I just really needed a friend, that doesn't mean I forgive her for what she did. Uni broke my trust to the point where I don't think she can get it back. So, I can't answer her calls and act like we're friends. 

I have spoken to Taehyung either. I'm proud that I fought through the urge and I didn't kill him, but with everything, we are in such an awkward position. I made it clear that we aren't dating, but that doesn't mean my feeling have gone away for him. If anything all I want is his touch again, I want him to hold me while stroking my skin. I want to run my hands through his hair and look him in his eyes. I can read his heart through those eyes. I can read the words 'I love you' through those eyes, and I say it back through mine. I want to feel his kiss again. Taehyung's soft lips on mine as he kissing me passionately, showing me how much he cares for me. How badly I would want one more kiss, but despite how I feel...it's different for him. 

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I hear the doorbell ring from my room. I was inside my covers and reading one of my favorite novels. Reading takes me back to a place of peace. I ignored the ring and continue reading having no energy to figure out who it was. However, the ringing doesn't stop. I sigh flipping the page over and read. The noise stops, and the person begins knocking on the door loud enough for me to hear. I shut my book while rolling my eyes at the situation. With little strength, I put the book aside from me and got off the bed. The knocking continued as I walk downstairs and near the door. Finally, I placed my hand on the doorknob and opened it quickly. I was impatient and wanted to know who had the audacity to disturb my peace. 

I was taken back at the person. I gripped the doorknob tighter and gulped and my view. Taehyung looks down at me and examined my outfit. He could tell I was having a rough couple of days. He put his eyes back on mine, and tilted his head waiting for me to say something, but I didn't. 

Taehyung's arm rests on the side of the door, and puts one hand in his pocket, "Hey," It felt like it's been forever since hearing his voice. It sounded deep and husky, like he forgot how to speak to me. I nodded at him still taken back at the fact that he's here. I didn't know what to say, I don't want to discuss about Jinhwan or our relationship because I am obviously still broken over it, "You haven't been to school for a while Sun, I just wanted to check in," I stared at him some more before responding with a sigh.