Lessons learned

Chapter 39

Okay so I admit marching down to Peter's dorm with the collection of; Indiana, Calli and Megan hot on my tail wasn't the smartest thing I've ever done. I was just tired of all the emotions that I was forced to feel because of the pain Megan and Peter had caused me. It was affecting everything, the way I lived, my work and my relationships.

I had to make it end.

So I stormed right into Peter's dorm absolutely furious, Megan barged right past me and gently placed her fat hand on Peter's knee. I remember how alarmed he looked as he shot straight up when I entered, his entire face paled when he saw the anger radiating from my eyes. 

Logan and James looked at each other before James got up and tried advancing towards me with caution. 'Nic are you sure you want to be here?' I remember being so mad at the world that I couldn't even find the correct words that would satisfy his question so I just stared at Megan and the way that she had clamped herself onto Peter's arm.

'Nic, what's happened?' Peter had asked me with pure fear hiding in his eyes, I saw his discomfort as Megan held on tighter.

I was heartbroken, a complete utter mess at this point. I felt stupid for feeling so as the boy had never loved me back. It was just the hardest thing ever to watch the person you feel so much for, love someone else.

'Im done, Peter.' I told him breathlessly.

An emotion flashed within him but I didn't know which one it was and at this point I didn't care.

'With what?'

'Why did you tell her that I kissed you? You know I didn't kiss you, why would you tell her that?' I said through gritted teeth unaware of all of the people around me. 

'I-'

'I thought you were my friend Peter, I trusted you with everything.'

'It just came out I swear I didn't mean to tell her, I was just so happy and relieved that you kissed me back that I just wanted to tell everyone about it and I'm sorry.'

'Wait.' Megan stood up and came between us. 

'You kissed her?' Megan's voice was like venom as she turned to Peter, he looked helplessly towards his friends.

'I'm done Peter I don't want to live like this anymore. I'm done with feeling like utter crap over some guy.' I told him pushing Megan out of the way.

At this moment I knew what I had to do, I knew that it was dangerous to keep seeing Peter and I realised that I needed to stop muddling in other people's relationships. I took a look at each one of my 'friends' and nodded before leaving the room to go and talk to the head of uni.

Basically to cut a long story short I restarted my life, I transferred dorm room and all my classes were switched around and the only friend that even bothered to stay in contact with me was Abby. I know this wasn't my smartest idea but I had to.

You're probably think I'm overacting but it wasn't just the heartbreak that caused my move. It was the loss of my best friend and the betrayal from my oldest friend. It was the feeling of solitude and isolation, I wanted to be myself again. 

I learned so much from this stupid situation and I now know not to trust too many people and give my love to that one person who deserves it. I may have littered my body with pictures that tell the story of me and Logan but they remind me that things get better and I respect myself now. 

THE END- the next chapter will be an epilogue.