Lessons learned

Chapter 26

Some time passes before my car passenger door opened.

It started to rain, of course, and my tears turned into a puddle on my lap.

Abby shook her head to rid herself of the rain drops, I didn't look over at her I continued to look straight ahead watching the sun settle down on the earth.

We both sat in silence, each thinking about our own problems. Neither one of us wanted to speak but that was fine- silence was fine.

The gentle patter of the rain against the windscreen speed up turning into a brutal attack but neither of us minded. I closed my eyes and tried to let the sound of the constant thudding over take the horrible thoughts I had running round my head.

By this time I had stopped crying, not being able to find the point in sharing my tears with a world that didn't care. My breathing had decreased as I stopped denying the pain.

'There was this guy.' Abby breaks the silence and I slowly turn my head to face her giving her the strength to continue.

'I loved him.'

She stopped and looked away from me and focused her eyes out of the window. I placed my hand on her thigh and gave her a reassuring rub before pulling back again.

'He was my everything, my reason for breathing, for existing. I wouldn't be here if it wasn't for him.' She informs me and I nod.

I never thought Abby had been in love before and now that I know, she doesn't seem so tough and complex. She's just a normal person who has normal feelings, like me.

'I gave everything to him and if I had anything left I would have given that to him too.'

'He...he used to call me up at stupid o'clock in the morning.' She laughed slightly to herself. 'It probably should have annoyed me but...it didn't. I felt...wanted, needed in fact.'

We both sat in silence again, neither of us looking at each other just looking straight ahead. The darkness was soon to engulf us but that didn't matter, nothing mattered.

'He broke up with me. No explanation.' She confesses and finally looks at me.

'If you ever feel like no one understands you.' She paused. 'Always come to me.'

I let a tear slip out before I pulled her over the gear stick and hugged her tightly.

'Hey do you want to hear something funny?' She asked into my hair, I pull away and motion with my hands for her to continue.

'That guy.' She smiled. 'Well at the time, he was dating Megan.' I opened my mouth at the astonishing gossip.

'See, anything's possible.' She winked.

I thanked her and we returned to the comfortable silence.

'Why her?' I say without meaning to.

This question has hurt my brain the amount of times it's circulated.

'She got there first, I guess.'

'She doesn't like him, does she? Has...has she mentioned anything to you about that?' My voice is soft and low key.

'She said she would never date him.'

My blood begins to boil as I sit up straight in my seat and grab the door handle. Abby reaches over and hold my hand to stop me, I glance at her but she gives me a side glare making me retract my hand.

'This sucks, I thought I'd be fine after Logan but here I am. I'm pathetic.'

'Switch seats with me.' She demands.

'What?'

'Switch seats.' She repeats as she gets out of my car and walks over to my side and opens my door. I hesitantly get out and go over to her side.

'Why?'

She eyes me up and down before turning the key in the ignition.

'Where are we going?'

Her mouth turns up as she grin at me.

'Shut the fuck up bitch I'm taking you on an adventure.'

Lesson learned; you don't need 'bitching' sessions with your best friends to get over a guy. Sometimes it's best to sit down and just talk things over.

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