Lessons learned

Chapter 15

Everyone has those moments in their lives in which they find themselves slightly embarrassed for example, they may be caught in a... compromising position by a parents or loved one, or they could fall on the stage at graduation. Well I had prided myself on never experiencing an embarrassing moment, until I woke up next to Logan last week.

It wasn't the fact that I was naked from the waist down and next to a smirking Logan that had me belting for the door to hide the tint of red in my cheeks, that I was very much used to. No the real reason behind my embarrassment came from the person that walked through that damned dorm door in the early hours of the morning.

Peter of course.

When he walked in it completely made me feel so guilty for coming up to Logan's dorm in the first place, especially after I promised myself that I wasn't going to drink. Then when he walked in my breast had spilled out from the blue lace bra that I was wearing giving him a full display of almost everything on offer, I'm just glad that the covers covered my lower region, that would have been mortifying.

Bless him, he looked so surprised to see me there that his eyes almost fell out of his sockets especially as he took in my exposed cheast. Afterwards he smiled at me with amusement and something else that I couldn't quite distinguish, Logan yelled at him to get out so that I could change. I could feel all of the heat in my body rush to my cheeks as he quietly excuses himself from his own dorm.

I swear I have never got dressed so quickly before in my life, it just felt so stuffy in the small dorm and I was beyond embarrassed that the guy I liked had seen me being so slutty. After a few perverted comments from Logan I darted away out of the door.

Peter was waiting patiently outside of the room pacing around. When he saw me the look on his face is something that I never will forget, he looked so...disappointed and I knew just then that I had no chance with him, I'd blown it.

So here I sit in my dorm alone a week later still living in it replaying his face, it's all I can see and he's all I can think about. He probably thinks that me and Logan are back together or that I'm weak because I crawled back to him so quickly but then again I guess I am weak, I couldn't deal with Megan all over him so I turned to the next best thing.

There was a knock at my door making Peter's face disappear, but I knew that was only temporary, his disappointment would come back.

'Hello?' I said opening the door, Peter stood there smiling as if nothing had happened.

'Hey.' I stared at him thinking that he was going to blow up at me any minuet, so I stood there waiting for his lecture and waiting for his disappointment. 'Well are you going to let me in?' He laughed and I stood to the side still cautious and waiting for his outburst.

He sits on my bed and pats the spot next to him, I slowly move and sit in the spot. 'About the other day.' I blurted out making his head snap up to meet my eyes. 'I know you're disappointed in me but I-'

'Disappointed? Why would I be disappointed in you?' He cut me off laughing, I relaxed and let out a deep breath removing his face from my head. 'I just thought that you would think less of me, I mean you saw my boob.' I kept my voice low as if I was trying to spare him of the details. 'Aww Nic, baby I would never think less of you and hey it was a nice boob.' He laughed grabbing both of my arms and pulling me into his arms. I let myself relax and I breathed him in feeling more at home than I ever had before. I love it when he calls me baby, no one ever has before apart from some sleaze ball guys who tried to hit on me. It makes me feel special when he says it.

My feelings are so strong for him that I feel that I may explode from the amount that I like him, this is so strange I feel like I should lift my head up and just kiss him. I feel that it would just be that easy and then I would never have to feel jealous or heartbroken every again. Although I know it's not that easy, if I kiss him and he doesn't feel the same way everything will be ruined. I have to keep pretending until I am sure that he likes me then I can press my lips against his and finally be happy, but for now I need to wait and be patient.