Lessons learned

Chapter 24

So basically the rest of the 'Holiday' went smoothly and I actually had a really good time despite the underlying pain that has seemed to become a constant in my life. The betrayal I felt is still there and as the bus pulls up to the uni I'm more nervous than ever.

I see Megan's face light up as we pull into a parking spot, I look away and make myself busy grabbing my suitcase from the top compartment from the bus. James undoes his seat belt to help me out and I gratefully thank him with a small uneasy smile. I am not looking forward to seeing Peter which is such a shame because I miss our close friendship, I miss him to be honest he's not the same guy that he was anymore.

I follow the rest of the group off of the bus making sure that I'm the last off, I take extra long thanking the driver as I try to prolong the inevitable. I know that as soon as I get off this bus I'll be back in my old life, the one full of sadness.

I finally step onto the uni campas and inhale deeply looking around the familiar grounds. As my eyes surface on the dorm building I see two faint figures coming towards us, I grab my suitcase and move into a circle with the rest of my friends, plus Megan.

'That was really great fun thank you Indiana for organizing this.' James said happily, placing a soft hand on Indi's shoulder she blushes and looks away. 'I had a great time guys, thanks. If you want me and James are having a boy's night tonight and I suppose you can join.' Logan says playfully and I'm immediately interested.

'I'll come.' I speak for the first time since we left our little 'Holiday'.

'Awesome, come round any time.' I nodded and looked at the not so faint figures that were still coming towards us. I make it out to be Peter a pretty woman.

The woman is tall with brown hair flowing down her back and falls around her face highlighting her cheekbones. Her eyes have been caked delightfully with smokey brown eye shadow with black eye liner. Her body is curvy and she has her hand placed on her hip in sophistication. My jaw drops as I take her in, but I know exactly who she is from those beautiful blue eyes. I smile and advance towards her.

'You must be Kathy.' I exclaimed before I realised what I was doing, her warm smile calmed me instantly and her face light up. 'You know me?'

Peter looked away from me and stepped towards Logan as if out of instinct. Ouch.

'Yeah of course I do, you look exactly like your brother.' I laugh and she claps her hands in joy.

'Well thank you I thought he hadn't told anyone about me.' I shake my head.

'No he's told me about you, I never thought I'd meet you though because I thought you were in New York.' It feels like I'm talking to an old friend, she's so nice and welcoming.

I notice how every one is looking at me as if I'm crazy but I feel like I know her because of what Peter has told me.

'He told you about me?'

I nodded.

'Oh yes, you must be Megan, he's told me so much about you!' She says and my mouth drops open and I take in a long deep breath to calm myself down.

Of course she would think I'm Megan.

'Oh no Kathy she's not Megan.' Peter cuts in awkwardly, the rest of our friends apart from Megan disappear from behind us slowly as they make their way back to their dorms.

'You're not? Oh my this is awkward, I'm so sorry.' She says looking down at the floor, I'm too speechless to comment on her mistake.

'What is your name then?'

'I'm Nicolette.'

She turns to her brother in confusion.

'Well he's never spoken of you, are you new?.' She politely tries to recover. I look over at Peter in embarrassment, he hasn't even mentioned me to her. I thought I was his best friend- clearly not.

'Yeah, I'm new. We haven't been friends for that long, I mean we've never been that close really. Well not as close as he is with Megan of course but we're not friends any more.' I say not taking my eyes off of him.

His face is flustered and I walk past him bumping shoulders as I storm off into the direction of the library, I don't want to go back to my dorm room just yet.

I find a corner of the library which is rather hidden and quiet, I pull out my headphones and decided to let the music take over me instead of letting anything that just happened effect me.

I lay my head back against one of the book shelves, I exhale in time with the depressing music flowing through my ears. I hate that I lent my heart to a guy that I trusted with everything I had just to watch him literally tear it apart in front of me.

Having a crush is ruining my life and I've never been so depressed, it's not the fact that he doesn't feel the same way that bothers me it's just that I've lost my best friend. He's completely unrecognizable.

I miss him.

I want him to skip parties to hang out with me, I want him to fall asleep in my bed and then move into his bed before I woke up thinking that I wouldn't notice. I want him to tease me like he used to, to hide my shirt from me so we both end up shirtless, I want him to casually flirt with me, to call me Miss Stone. Most of all I just want him to be there for me.

So yes I miss him, very very much.

I don't hate Megan because she lied to me, or even that she's hiding a bunch of shit from me. The real reason that I hate her is because she took him away. I'm not mad that he's not mine anymore I'm mad because she's changed him into this monster that I can't be around and it scares me because I don't know if the Peter I knew is ever going to come back.

When I finally decided to go back to my room it's dark out but I walk slowly trying to procrastinate.

'There you are young lady.' Calli playfully scolds as I walk through the door, I give her a side smile earning me a sympathetic look.

'What happened?' She asked carefully.

'I'd rather not talk about it tonight, okay?'

She looked at Indiana and then back to me, she gently placed her hands on my forearms. 'Just promise me you're okay.'

'I can't promise you that.' I told her honestly.

Lesson learned; you can't use a Holiday to run away from your problems.