Lessons learned

Chapter 16

'Then who?' He quizzes me raising his eyebrow.

 Oh fuck, I really am going to do this.        

In a few short minuets it will all be over, he'll know.

What if he laughs in my face?

What if he just leaves?

He stands staring at me expectantly waiting for me to answer him. The more he stares the more uncomfortable and insecure I feel. I want to tell him exactly how I'm feeling and just pour my heart out but I'm afraid that it will end badly.

'What? Oh I was...I'm kidding of course it was Logan.' I mutter like the coward I am. Our friendship is too strong to ruin, I can't let him leave my life.

'Oh right.' He said his face falling slightly. 'Um...' He says rocking awkwardly on the balls of his feet. I just want to lunge for him and wrap my arms around his broad shoulders but I don't, I use whatever self control I actually have and stand still, just staring at him. He brings his hand up and rubs the back of his neck and I can't deny have simply sexy he looks right now.

'Um...I'm going to leave now.' He announces. 'Oh okay, I'll see you around.' I offer him a small smile and mentally smack myself for being so awkward, I've never acted this way before in my entire life. Without another word he leaves shutting the door behind him, I let out a long sigh falling back onto my bed like the complete idoit that I am.

I groan and roll over a couple of times before I realise how stupid I really am, why didn't I just tell him? I mean he's a nice enough person to let me down easy. He would have just been a little shocked but our friendship is too strong and nothing can sink it.

I gather enough courage and lift myself off of my bed and quickly walk towards the door.

'Nic, we're here!' Indiana says as she walks through the door with Calli and some guy following her. 'Hi.' I say quickly eager to leave. 'Let me introduce you to someone.' Calli said grabbing my arm stopping me from moving out of the room. I roll my eyes, I guess Peter will have to wait.

I turn to the tall brown haired boy that stands in my dorm staring back at me. 'Hi I'm Nicolette but call me Nic.' I introduce myself offering my hand for him to shake, he takes my hand and shakes it smiling at me. 'I'm Tom.' We stare at each other for a couple of minuets the air returning to the awkwardness that it was when Peter was in here. I have no idea who Tom is or what he's doing in this room.

'Tom is my friend.' Calli giggles and Tom's eyes glide over her body subtly. 'Yeah and my room mate seems to be occupying my dorm at the moment and Calli found me and brought me here, I hope that's okay.' I like him he seems nice and he may hang out with Calli as he pleases, I'm very protective over the people I love. 'No it's fine I'm about to leave anyway.'

'And where are you going?' Indiana pipes up from her bed, I look past Tom and grin at her. 'I'm going to find Peter.' He mouth widens. 'Why?' She says slowly her eyes never leaving mine. 'I'm going to tell him how I feel.' I breath trying to get rid of the nerves that come along with that statement. 'No way.' She gasps and I nod grabbing my phone. 'Wish me luck.' I sing grabbing the door handle.

'Good luck you crazy mother fucker.' She laughs as I leave.

I decide to take a walk around the uni to calm myself down before I go and find Peter. Maybe I am as crazy as Indiana says I am but that's okay I need to do this.

I look around still not too happy about the sun hitting me, my hair basically shinning under the strong light. I walk for a little bit before I hear familiar giggles, I stop in my tracks and follow the sound. I follow the sound to the side of the building, I look around the corner and freeze.

Megan flings her arms around Peter's neck as he places his hands on her hips gently staring into her eyes, he looks uncertain and slightly nervous. I can't see her as her back is to me, but I can see him as clear as day. He keeps moving his eyes away from her but she grabs his chin so that their eyes lock. I know I should look away but I can't, I move behind the corner a little so I'm slightly hidden. I watch them as she flicks her dyed hair over her shoulder and his arms tighten around her hips.

Then I watch as he leans down and time slows, he leans towards her an unsure smile painted on his lips. Then it happens.

Peter kisses Megan.

My hands instantly flies to my mouth to stop the scream from escaping and tears of pain and betrayal run down my face with no mercy. My breathing increases as I step backwards trying to get as far away from them as possible. I find myself running to Abby's dorm room.

As soon as the door opens I the pain overtakes me and I collapse into her arms.

Lesson learned; If you like someone forget about it, it always ends painfully.