In Your Arms ( Med Series #1)

Chapter 39

Chapter 39

Lost consciousness

He embraced me tightly as his tears kept on flowing non-stop. Idiniin niya ang ulo niya sa aking leeg at ramdam na ramdam ko ang bawat pagpatak ng luha niya. I tapped his back, and my other hand brushes his hair while I keep myself silent.

Sumasakit ang puso ko sa nakikita ko ngayon. He is in his vulnerable state. Right now, I am the only one who witnesses the pain that he's been feeling and keeping for a long time. Hindi man niya sinasabi ang tunay niyang nararamdaman ngayon ay alam ko na nasasaktan siya ngayon.

It pains me to see my love crying—the who is stronger than me crying. Being silent in this kind of situation is all I can do right now. I will let him cry all the pain until he felt better.

Ilang minuto na kami dito sa labas ng bahay nila at hanggang ngayon ay hindi pa rin siya tumitigil sa pag-iyak. Niyakap ko lang siya ng nakapahigpit hanggang sa tumahan na siya.

Sometimes, being silent is a way of comfort too.

Inangat na niya ang kaniyang ulo at pinunasan ang luha niya. Hinawakan ko ang magkabilang pisngi niya. Tumingkayad ako at hinalikan ang dalawang mga mata niya.

"Just let it cry, love. You don't have to pretend that you're stronger when you are really breaking inside," I told him softly.

"I am sorry, love that you have to witness all of this."

Agad ko siyang inilingan at hinalikan bago nginitian.

"You don't need to apologize, Reeve. Don't apologize for the things that out of your control. We are humans, and as human being nasasaktan din tayo. Hindi sa lahat ng oras ay kailangang maging malakas lang. It's okay to be weak, and nothing's wrong with that."

Being weak is also being strong. Kasi alam mo sa sarili mo na hindi sa lahat ng pagkakataon ay kaya mo. Showing your weakness doesn't mean that you are weak. You just have to embrace it as it will also become your strength to become stronger.

"Still, I am sorry because of what my family has done to you. They treated you like trash in front of me. They didn't accept and respect you." Pain crosses his eyes. He looked away and bit the inside of his cheeks.

What his family did to me wasn't okay at all. It was a slap to my face that they didn't want me for their son. It was obvious right from the start because Joana was there, and his mother was very vocal about it. Pero hindi niya 'yon kasalanan. It was out of our control anymore at it was his parent's decision.

"Let's not be sorry for the things that out of our control, right? What they did to me wasn't your fault and stopped being responsible for it," I said, "besides, I saw it coming already and sanay na ako. I've experienced it before eh," I joked.

Kahit na ang totoo ay masakit pa rin sa akin. I know we don't need anyone's approval for our love. Kaso iba pa rin kapag tanggap ka ng pamilya ng taong mahal mo.

If past life exixts ano kayang ginawa ko no'n at ganito na lamang akong tratuhin ng pamilya ng taong mahal ko. Was I a bad child? A rebel child? To be treated like this in my life.

"You don't deserve to be treated like that. I told you, you deserve the best, and I am going to give it to you," he softly uttered and kissed the top of my head.

"Nasabi ko na ba sa'yo na ganito rin ang trato sa akin ng pamilya ni Christoph. I am treated like trash, either—the same situation with different people. I am not welcome. And what happened tonight reminds me of that day. Pero iba ngayon at alam kong hindi mo ako iiwan. I know we will both fight for this," I shared as it somehow relieves me.