In Your Arms ( Med Series #1)

Chapter 20

Chapter 20

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Life is precious so we must live with it. Every chapter has a beginning and an end. In every closing chapter, there was a mission and lesson behind it. So is life.

Life is all about dealing with any of the circumstances. If love has pain so is life. Life has also its twin—hindrance.

"Are you okay?" One of the nurses asked me. Nandito ako sa nurse station to check some of the patient's chart.

It's been months when our clinical rotation started. Although I have some experiences before, it was just minimal compared to what we are doing now.

I get to witness the death of a patient every day. Yes, it's normal pero iba rin pala kapag ikaw mismo ang nakaka-witness ng lahat ng iyon.

We took care of our patients every day. Nasa kanila umiikot ang mundo mo sa loob ng hospital. Kaya ang pagkawala nila ay masyadong masakit para sa akin.

No matter how hard you do to save them. . .kung panahon na nila wala na tayong magagawa.

"I just witness another death," I smiled weakly at her. Dapat masanay na ako sa ganito. This will be my job in the near future.

"It's normal. Hindi natin hawak ang buhay nila," she comforted me.

"Iba pa rin pala talaga kapag ikaw talaga mismo ang nakakita ng lahat ng mga pangyayari," I shared to her.

"Ganyan din ako no'ng unang sabak ko sa pagiging nurse. Alam ko naman na hindi madali ang pagiging nurse dahil sa mga walang katapusan na trabaho. Pero, ang mas mahirap pala ay 'yong ikaw mismo ang makakakita ng pagkamatay nila. My first experience about that is. . .I cried so hard," she shared to me.

"Napaiyak talaga ako no'n ng nang sobra-sobra na sa tuwing naiisip ko, biglang kusang tutulo ang mga luha ko. Kasi, 'yong pasyente na 'yon ay napamahal sa akin. I was there all the time to monitor him tapos sa isang iglap, nawala na siya. . ." she added.

"Never thought that this will be hard," I murmured.

"Kailangan mo ng masanay kasi ito na 'yong magiging trabaho mo, soon," sabi niya habang inaayos ang mga chart at ang iba ay binibigay sa mga nurse for their assigned patients.

"I am still adjusting," I casually told her as I checked the chart of one of our patients.

"Masasanay ka rin, kagaya sa amin."

"At kapag sanay ka na, normal na lang ang lahat ng 'yan para sa'yo. Doctors do their best to save them and we also tried our best to assist them. Kapag tinatawag ka na hindi ka na makakatakas. Death cannot be avoided," dagdag niya pa bago binilang ulit ang mga chart.

Death is the only thing that we cannot avoid. Death can happen with no specific measures. Possibleng ngayon ay pwede tayong mamatay.

That is why cherish every moment you had with your loved ones. Kasi, hindi natin alam na anytime ay wala na sila sa tabi mo.

But what hurts the most is the unexpected death.

I heaved a sigh and continue what I am doing. This isn't the first time that I witness their death. It happened to me many times. Lalo na at paiba-iba kami ng rotation. Last week nasa Department of Obstetrics and Gyncology department ako.

I am a student nurse and I had to assist the doctor in delivering the baby. I was there to witness how the mother suffered in delivering the baby during her stages of labor. I was there to assist the mother and to keep her monitor always.

Only to end up her child wasn't crying after she gave birth. The doctor tried so many times to revive the baby.

Everyone in that operating room was silently praying na sana umiyak na ang baby. . .pero kahit anong gawin ng doctor ay hindi talaga.