Betwixt This Forbidden Love

21st Thread: His Pain

HIS PAIN

ARCHERR

I glance at her in the rearview mirror. She's too quiet and I'm not used to it. I'm also so concerned earlier when I saw blood stain on her dress. I'm worried cause I don't know how does it felt, what if its painful and I made it more worst because of the scene I did?! I felt somehow guilty, but gladly she said she's fine. And that also explain why she's being grumpy and easy to change her mood in a minute. Her being grumpy is way more fine than her being quiet like this.
I hate it, but its my fault.

I didn't control myself again earlier. My anger bursted out and I shouted again at her. Damn.

And its all because of that man again! Just shit!

"He loves you... believe me..."

No he don't. He's just pretending. I don't know how can I believe that, but I admit that there's a part of me whose hoping that it's true. I just want to hear it right exactly from him.

If he loves me, if he still wants me to be his son, then prove it! Then tell it to me personally! In that way, I might believe him.

We're still stuck in the traffic and as I glance at my companion again. She's already asleep. She looks so soft and fragile, but I know she's more than tough than me. She's more braver than me. That's what I admire about her.

I looked at her whole, wearing my grey jacket, its big on her and it just made her  look softer. I saw the red mark at her wrist which I caused earlier. Tsk.

'You're too hard headed kasi... I can't let you go home at your own.'

I softly touch the red mark on her wrist wishing it'll be gone now, I stop it immediately when she flinch. Good thing she didn't open her eyes, tsk.

I suddenly remember what kuya Aiden and I talked about the first time we met again. Tsk-- I'm still embarrassed on what I did.

I was too shocked when I heard someone called her 'baby', like what I did when I was drunk.

I just like to call her that cause I think it suits her, but---hearing it from others. And it freaking came from her bathroom's room!

Ugh! My mind that time was too clouded. Kala ko may ibang lalaki na siyang pinapasok sa room and they fvcking did something. Or maybe she really had a boyfriend, but she didn't tell me. I really thought----ugh!

I was just lucky that its kuya Aiden whom I punched. He bursted out of course. Sino ba hindi magagalit kung pagkalabas mo ng banyo ay may sumapak sayo? Tsk.

He punched me too and if Ret-ret didn't came... maybe we already had a boxing fight there. We both didn't recognize each other. Stupid right?

"Why was your reaction like that huh? Bakit ganun kaagad ang reaksyon mo nung narinig mo na may tumawag sakanya sa ganung paraan?"

I was stunned when kuya brought that question up, thou somehow I expected it.

I really don't know actually. Basta't nainis nalang ako bigla and kung ano-ano na ang pumasok sa isip ko. And the fact that she said na she loves that man made me more surprised.

She doesn't clear it to me agad kaya't ganoon nalang. Natauhan nalang ako nang sapakin ako pabalik ni kuya Aiden, tsk.

"I was just too shocked kuya. Im sorry... I really thought..."