marvel one-shots // avengers x reader

What? Pt 2~ Natasha and Wanda

Tw: self harm, depression, mentions of suicide

That's when it all clicked "oh my god what did my friends say to you the other night?!" They were doubled over with laughter, and I took it as an opportunity to throw Wanda on the floor with Nat and walk out.

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Back in the day, Bucky would always tease my brother and I about our polar opposite personalities. Steve was a nice little calm boy and I was a short tempered little girl. I used to be taller than Steve, but now he's like 20 feet taller than me.

I would always assume the worst and never trusted anyone. I was always on high alert and when my brother left home, everything got worse. He never even sent a letter home to say he was safe.

Then one day, a young British woman knocked on our door. My mother opened it and the woman introduced herself as "Peggy Carter." My mother invited her in for tea which Peggy gladly accepted. She shook both of our hands before clearing her throat.

"Mrs Rogers, Y/N, I am sorry to tell you this but Steve has unfortunately passed away," she said, tears falling down her face. My mother instantly broke down, I however was completely speechless.

My mouth hung open in shock, still processing what this woman had just said. "How did you know him?" I asked her. "We were very close, we met at his army training," she replied.

I shook my head and covered my mouth to stifle the cries threatening to escape from it. I refused to believe he was dead, he wouldn't just leave me behind, would he?

Steve was all that could make me happy, and with him gone I had no idea what to do. I began to cut myself, the familiar sting of my skin being cut open by a razor became comforting. I enjoyed seeing the blood trickling down my arm and down the drain of the shower.

After a few years HYDRA found me, and tortured me. They experimented on me every hour of every day.

I became extremely dangerous, I had the same powers and Wanda, Pietro, I had super soldier serum coursing through my veins, I aged extremely slowly and was learning to manipulate the elements.

One day, someone blew up the base HYDRA was keeping me in and I managed to escape.

I made a new life for myself in New York, I went back to university and graduated. Five and a half years. I became stressed and anxious without my brother by my side, it was hard not seeing my best friend after we had been so close for so long. I started to cut myself again, and it wasn't doing me any good.

I had a really bad headache one evening and I went to take some painkillers. Everything had become to much recently and I had been having suicidal thoughts. Just take the pills. Take them all. Nobody will miss you. Nobody cares about you.

I was about to take my own life when suddenly some breaking news showed on the TV. Captain America was back.

I ran as fast as I could to Stark Tower, thankfully the super soldier serum made sure I could run for hours and never get tired. There was a huge crowd outside and I managed to push my way through the crowd.

Tony Stark started telling people to get out, but I couldn't, not when my brother was there. "Steve!" I called out, I thought he wouldn't hear me over the crowd, but I hoped he could recognise my voice after 70 years.