The 1975

Chapter Sixty-Nine || Hell hath no furry

*Pretty dramatic chapter*

Date: November 7th

Location: The Eagles Club - Milwaukee, Wisconsin

"Abigail" Andy called.

"Yeah" I mumbled.

"Jamie asked us to make sure you ate" Jonathan said. They stared at me in a polite kind of horror. I probably looked a mess so I expected the estranged looks.

"I'm not hungry" I said.

"You gotta get out of bed" Bruno sighed. They were all still staring.

"No" I sighed. "Can you all stop looking at me like that?"

"At least get out of this bunk and go lay on the couch" Kyle said. "Please Abbi"

I sighed then rolled out the bunk with the quilt still wrapped about me, I'm sure I looked like a burrito. When I got to the couch I just plopped down then laid out across it. "Can I get something to drink?"

"Of course" Andy half smiled. "Water?"

"Vodka?"

He chuckled. "Ginger Ale is the strongest thing Jamie will let us give you"

"Fine" I huffed then looked at Bruno. "Where's my phone?"

"You tossed it last night, remember?" He asked.

"Oh" I mumbled. "Right well do any of you guys have a laptop?"

"Sure" Kyle nodded. "What for?"

"I need to book a flight home" I said. They just stared in shock.

The events from Chicago flashed through my mind and I felt warm tears roll down again. It's been two days and I'm still mad and hurt. Matty kissed a fan, like actually kissed her, he sang robbers to her then grabbed her and kissed her while I watched, he slowed danced with her then took her back stage for photos and a nice long talk. What made the situation so much worse is that he was drunk and he acted like I wasn't standing there the whole time watching while he kissed another girl.

Now I know what most of you are thinking, dramatic Abigail is at it again. But look at it like this, the love of my life sang his favorite song to a fan, slow danced with her then kissed her. He also brought her back stage and introduced her to me. It's heartbreaking to watch the person you love cheat on you and yes that is cheating because he kissed someone else, I don't care how drunk he was or even if it didn't matter, I was standing right there and he still did it. That's what hurt.

That situation hurt more than any other situation he has put me through because despite popular belief he cheated and that is wrong. So here I am, sleeping on the bus of the Cruiser boys, I have been since Chicago because I couldn't stand to look at him without wanting to slap him or cry or throw up or scream. I've been in that bunk since we left so I probably smell gross which would explain while none of the Cruiser boys have come near me. Ha my life is a joke a this point.

"Abbi" Bruno said. "You can't leave"

"Really?" I asked. "You must not know me"

"No we do" Kyle chuckled. "That's why we know you're one to make rash decisions without thinking them through"

"Look what he did was wrong but he wasn't in the right mind Ab" Andy said.

"He never is!" I snapped. "If he's not drunk he's high! He's a fucking mess who cheated on me then had the nerve to act like he didn't do anything wrong!"

"Okay" Jonathan nodded then sat in front of me. "Look calm down"

"No don't tell me to calm down!" I shouted. "The person I love, the person I trusted kissed some little ass girl in front of me! So I want to go home today!"