The 1975

Chapter Seventy-Three || Haunt

Date: November 19th

Location: Hollywood Palladium - Los Angeles, California

"Has she slept?" Adam asked. Him and Bruno were talking outside my bunk for the last ten minutes about me, they thought I was still asleep. They clearly thought wrong.

"We got her to lie down for a few hours but no not really" Bruno said. He's been a real good friend these past days, we've been on the road and he hasn't left my side. He brought me food and checked up on me, he kept me company and kept my mind off of everything and I don't think I could thank him enough for that. Kyle was nice enough to give me his bunk on the bus and all the Cruiser boys were kind enough to let me stay on this bus.

"Is she eating?" Adam asked.

"Not really" Bruno said. "Look she's hanging in there okay?"

"Right but she's barely making it" Adam said. "We just need her to be okay"

"Well get Matty to talk to her and I'm sure she'll be fine" Bruno lightly chuckled.

"Can you both be quiet?" Andy groaned from his bunk across from mine. "By now im sure she's awake"

"I am" I chuckled then pulled back my curtain. "Morning"

"Hey" Bruno smiled. "We made it to LA"

"Yay" I said dryly then rolled out my bunk. "Hello Hann"

"Hey" Adam smiled. "Jamie's called a meeting outside"

"Cool I'll be in the shower" I said then made my way to the back of the bus.

We haven't spoken, when we stopped for potty breaks on the road and for rest he would totally avoid me and I couldn't blame him. I was being selfish I wasn't even considering how he must feel. We were both so hurt and we were both to blame and I wish it wasn't like this I wish I could wake up next to him every morning and see him smile at me again and I wish he could love me again but he doesn't and he won't smile anymore and he hates me and that is the hardest thing to deal with. I've lost him and I've lost myself.

Despite my melodramatic state of mind I wasn't crying as much and like Bruno said I was getting more sleep which still isn't enough apparently and I was eating but not eating if that makes any sense. I would eat breakfast maybe but the thought of eating never pleased me anymore, I was so damaged that my health was now getting effected. Back to the matter I wasn't as broken as before but still damaged goods who could barely function but that's still progress isn't it?

After mr shower I changed into stripped T-shirt dress and my black and white low top converse. LA clearly didn't get any type of cold weather and I was so thankfully for that because I was tired of being in jackets and sweaters and wearing pants. I hadn't brushed my hair in days so after washing it I took a brush to the beast and finally made it looks normal again. My eyes were puffy and I had dark circles so I did everything I could with makeup to look less dead. Once I was done I was proud of the mask I had on my choice of outfit.

"You just missed the most boring meeting ever" Andy chuckled as he stepped on the bus. "Were going for breakfast you wanna come?"

"I'm not hungry"

He nodded then smiled at me. "You good?"

"Sure" I shrugged.

"You don't have to lie to me Ab" he smiled.

"It's easier than crying" I lightly chuckled then grabbed my purse. "Have fun"

"Where are you off too?" He asked.

"We're in LA" I smiled. "I'm gonna go find something to do"

"Cool" he nodded.

I really needed to get off that bus and get far away for a while. Not long I just needed fresh air and LA was the perfect place to breathe, despite the pollution it was a pretty city with lots of things to do and people to meet. Last time I was here I was so happy and I was dating Kevin and Isis was with me and it was a great time and now I was broken but I was here and it brought back great memories. I did have to let Jamie know I was going out first.