The 1975

Chapter Fifty-Five || They're just girls...

*This is a two day chapter, you'll see what I mean*

Date: September 30th

Location: Alexandra Palace Hotel - London, UK

"What do we need to talk about?" I asked.

"Will you sit down?" Matty asked. "You standing there staring at me, it's fucking with me Abigail"

I sighed then sat down next to him but not to close. I had this gut feeling that things were gonna go bad real soon and once they did I didn't want him to do that thing that he does where I immediately forgive because I'm in love with him. "Talk"

"When....I" he sighed. "Gemma did stay with us while you were gone, it wasn't the first time but it has stopped I made sure of it"

Here it goes, he was gonna say it and I would react because that's what I do. I put myself in shit situations that end up killing me in the end. I should have listened to everybody but I didn't because he made me feel something I've never felt before. He made me feel alive and I wouldn't take any of that back, I would go through the bullshit again and again just to fall asleep next to him at night.

"After Pip died I was sad" he said and he was one blink away from actual tears. "I drank but what's new, I smoked also something that isn't news to you"

"Stop" I said quickly. "Please"

"Let me finish please" he said, he had blinked and one tear had fell but that was about it. "I know what you're thinking because somehow your fucked up mind always runs to me cheating but I did not lay one hand on Gemma, she did not sleep in my bed and I barely hugged her"

I let out such a sigh of relief but I didn't know why. His face just screamed guilty, there was more to this nightmare. He wouldn't have made this so serious if it wasn't, he still had something he was gonna tell me that would break me because he's Matty Healy and like he said before he will break me.

"However" he said and this was it, this would be the death of me. The death of us. "I said something that you need to hear from me before you hear it from her or Jessie. I was drunk and I told Gemma that there was hope for her and I and I swear Abigail I didn't mean it I was just mad"

It may seem juvenile to plenty of people but when somebody you love tells you they told their ex there's still hope for there relationship that shit hurts. I'm not mad, I can't be mad anymore. I'm sad. Who knew dating him would cause me such chest problems at such a young age.

"Can you please speak because you have this look on your face that's scaring me" he said all to quickly.

"Thanks" I said as I stood up.

"For what?" He asked.

"Doing exactly what you said you would do" I shrugged then walked out.

I couldn't really leave the hotel, not in pajamas since it was cold as hell out there and I couldn't go back to the room since I couldn't face him. My last reliable option was G and luckily for me his room door was wide open.

"Ab" Adam said.

"Get out"

"What?" Adam asked.

"Please leave" I said, I was finally crying.

"Just leave mate" George said quietly, I watched as Adam walked out he kissed me on the head before he was officially gone closing the door behind him.

"What's wrong?" George asked as he wrapped his arms around me.

"What's wrong with me?" I sobbed into his arms as we bought fell to the ground.