The 1975

Chapter Seventy-Nine || Unsteady

*Important authors note at the end also I don't know what the venue was for the Boston show so if you know feel free to tell me*

Date: December 6th

Location: Boston, Massachusetts

"Abigail you need to come down here now!" Jamie barked. His voice sounded hoarse.

I sighed as I pressed the phone against my jaw. "Jamie I can't, I'm sorry"

"Fuck Abigail" He shouted and it dawned on me that his voice his cracked and he was crying. "He fucking needs you so get your ass down here!"

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*6 hours earlier*

"Seriously Ab" Kendal sighed. "Batman is so much better than ironman"

"I mean yeah but Ironman has all the cool gadgets and batman just has a deep voice and the bat mobile" I said as leaned back against the headboard.

Terrance sighed as he walked in the room. "Not this again, this is why we don't watch superhero movies"

Kendal laughed. "Just put in the next movie bitch"

Terrance flicked him off then put in the third Ironman movie.

Like usually I couldn't sleep so I stayed up for most of the night watching movies and when I finally fell asleep and woke up Kendal had gone for a jog and Terrance went for breakfast. So I just laid in bed watching superhero movies since they're basically the only movies I watch and when both the guys came back they canceled their plans for the day to lay in bed with me and do this.

It's been like that recently. Both of them had this fear that something dramatic would happen if they left me alone for longer than three hours so one of them would stay with me in Kendal's guest room where I was currently crashing and just stay there. I felt bad because they would miss out on parties with their friends or fun stuff just to make sure I didn't have another emotional break down.

Lately I was doing better. Since our little talk it hit me that I really needed to try and attempt to move on and even if I didn't move on as fast as Matty could I would still attempt to. So I changed my number, deleted all social media because that is my daily reminded of Matty Healy and I just stopped talking to people who would ask me how I was because I just don't need to hear the question anymore. It's not like I'm gonna wake up one morning and be happy as fuck, it's work like that.

It's actually helped, since im not reminded of him on the daily it's been a easier process. I've gotten more sleep, I haven't been so bitchy with people and I haven't cried like every other but I mean I still cry I think that's just emotions though. I still haven't gotten my stuff from his place so I don't have much to work with hence why I'm staying with Kendal and I plan on going back to school soon since I'm not touring anymore. I have a meeting with the admissions director at Washington U next week.

"We should go away" Kendal said as Terrance climbed into bed next to me.

"What?" T asked.

Kendal shrugged. "Ab's been stressing lately and we all go back to school soon, we should just fly to some island for a week"

"Sure let me just pull ten grand out my ass" T snorted. "Have you forgotten were all college students living off our parents?"

I smiled. "Actually I'm a college dropout"

Kendal laughed. "Not after next week but anyways Ab's dad has that house in the Hampton's"

"Right" Terrance nodded. "You down Abbi?"