The 1975

Chapter Sixty-Five || Buy me love

Date: November 2nd

Location: Kool Haus - Toronto, Canada

"Abigail" Matty called.

"Hmm?"

"What's wrong?" He asked as he shot up.

"Nothing" I mumbled. "Just tired"

"You've been sitting there staring off into the stars for almost an hour" he chuckled. "Come on love you can talk to me"

"Do you love me?" I asked.

"Is that a trick question?"

"Never mind" I sighed then stood up. "Is somebody in the shower?"

"Wait" he said then reached for my hand. "Abigail of course I love you"

"I know" I half smiled.

"And to answer your question everyone's up and out in the other busses" he said.

I nodded. "I'll be in the shower"

"I love you"

"I know" I mumbled.

Last night was out first official night in the tour bus and it actually was much better than I expected. Matty and I obviously got the big room in the back of the bus since both of us can't fit in those small ass bunks. The bed was actually hella soft and we didn't hear any of the guys snoring through the walls so that was a plus. My only problem was how little space there was, at the moment all I wanted was space but I wouldn't get that for quite some time.

Uh last night George and I had a very awkward night. After my emotional breakdown on the roof he asked me if I really loved Matty and when I immediately said yes he asked me if Matty loved me. Of course I said he loved me but George just had this look on his face that made me even question my own relationship. Instead of questioning him I just left him on the roof and we haven't spoken since. I didn't want to speak to him, I was afraid of how the conversation would turn out.

Anyways today we were in Toronto and I think this was our last stop in Canada before we hit America and I was so excited. There's was so many things about America I missed, one of them being my family. Although I haven't spoken to my mother since I got back and all hell was breaking loose in my home I did miss them but I didn't have the courage at the moment to talk to them. I also missed the endless McDonald's at every corner and Chick Fil A's, I was very excited for chicken sandwiches.

After my shower I was freezing so I ran into bed and hid under the covers for a good ten minutes till Jamie walked in the room. I thanked god I was in my underwear but he was looking at me weird. After he got what he wanted and left I changed into leggings (what's new) a black knit sweater, black doc martens and then I curled my hair and tied it into a ponytail. My make up was simple and since it was cold out I grabbed a Burberry scarf to throw on, gloves, a beanie and a green parka that was too die for. I defiantly had better fashion taste then my boyfriend who was in the usual black jeans and scuffed boots.

"See you later" I sang as I walked up to Matty and kissed him.

"Where are you off too?" He asked as he tossed his coat on.

"Sight seeing" I said. "I'm sure one of the other boys would love to join me"

"Oh well I thought we could spend the day together" he said.

"I thought Jamie owned you?" I asked.

He chuckled. "First Jamie doesn't own me and second I told him you and I needed the day together"

I smiled. "Really?"

"Yeah" he smiled. "I would love to show these Canadians my beautiful girlfriend"