The Warden Doll

Chapter 35

Like a Pirate

Nanginginig ang labing tulala kong tinitigan ang nagbabagang apoy na para bang ito na ang pinaka-interesanteng bagay sa buong mundo na nakikita ko. I felt Elliot drying my hair but I remained unbothered, he's topless dahil binigay n'ya sa'kin damit n'ya kaya bungad na bungad sa'min ang tato nito na panigurado ay ikinatataka na rin ni Riguel pero simula pa kanina ay walang nagsasalita ni isa sa'min, tanging tunog lamang ng apoy ang namamagitan sa aming lahat.

My right eye stung when Vortex tried to lick it but I feel like I am too numb to feel things. I'm just so tired that I want to go home but at least Vortex never met Luigi. Back then Vortex remained unconscious sa place kung saan kami natalo nila Ryan, they didn't even laid an eye to Vortex, siguro kasi akala kila normal demon cat lang ito which is actually a good thing because that's what saved him. I turned my head to Vortex at kitang may hiwa din ito sa mata gawa ng mga werewolves, na ngayon ay natatakpan na ng tela. My hand flew to my mouth when I suddenly felt my stomach churn, agad akong tumayo at umalis sa kinauupuan ko para maghanap ng susukahan, and nothing came out but water. Muli na lamang akong napahawak sa labi at tahimik na umiyak.

I lost my left arm, now I lost my right eye. Why do these things must happen to me? Why me? Sa sitwasyon ko ngayon hindi ko mapigilan hindi ibaling ang galit at paghati sa ibang tao. Gusto ko lang naman tumulong, but if only I knew that helping Lanticse would cost me my arm and eyes, I wouldn't be here. 

That's right, this is all Lanticse fault.

Nakarinig ako ng kaluskos at sumunod no'n ay ang malamya nitong boses na para bang hindi kayang magalit. "A-Are you okay?" I felt her cold hand on my back pero agad ko itong ipiniksi at agad na tumayo paalis.

"I-I know you're blaming me for all of this and I-I'm sorry, okay---?"

"Do you think your 'sorry' can bring my arm and eyes back?!" Nanggigigil na sigaw ko sa kan'ya.

"Alam ko, n-naiintindihan ko kasi pareho lang tayo." Nanginginig ang labi na sambit nito.

"No, Lanticse, we're not the same." Halos magdikit ang dalawang kilay na saad ko. "Hindi lang mata nawala sa'kin Lanticse, kaya 'wag na 'wag mo akong itutulad sa'yo."

"I-I'm so sorry." Naiiyak na sambit nito at napaupo na lamang sa lapag.

I can't help but look at her disgustingly. I should be the one who's crying right now, I should be the one who has the guts to wail like a kid, pero s'ya? The one who is at fault dared to act as if she's the real victim here? She's no one to my life! I just met her the other day and she's already the reason why I lost my arm and eye! Gusto ko lang naman tumulong pero ba't umabot sa ganito? 

I don't really understand this girl at all, her father's the reason why she lost her eye sight and yet she's still desperate to find him? If only she wasn't that desperate. If only I wasn't this kind. I should've not cared about her at all. 

Sana hindi ko na lang s'ya nakilala.

Walang emosyon ko s'yang iniwan do'n at bumalik na. Agad na napalingon sa gawi ko ang dalawang lalaki nang mapansin ang presensya ko, sabay pang tumayo ang dalawa at lumapit sa'kin. 

"Asaan si Lanticse?" Umiwas lamang ako ng tingin at hindi s'ya sinagot.

I heard him 'tsk'-ed at nagmamadaling umalis para puntahan ang "pinakamamahal nitong babae". I felt Elliot wrapped his arm around my shoulder, he then rubbed my arm to comfort me but it was no use, I cannot find any sense of comfort lalo na kung nawalan ako ng buong braso at mata.