I'd Like to be Somebody Else

Chapter 13

      I decided to ignore the kiss, things were complicated enough with Jamie and Liam without adding feelings for Noel to the mix.

    Kenzie and I hung out a lot, she usually dragged me around the shops. We gossiped and ranted about life.

 "Has Tony told any of the others we're official?" she asked, they'd been sporadically having one night stands since the first gig but I wasn't expecting that.

 "I don't think so, I haven't seen Guigsy, Bonehead or Tony for weeks, except on stage. When did that happen?"

 "After Scotland we got talking." she revealed.

    If she was anyone else I might accuse her of taking interest because of the contract but she wasn't like that. She knew them from school, it wasn't like she'd suddenly gotten feelings for him now he was getting famous.

 "Cool."

 "What about Jamie? How's that going?" I'd told her under strict instructions to keep it top secret.

 "Yeah, we're good. I'm not exactly welcome at his house still but I completely understand that."

 "It's funny, I remember you saying you wouldn't "go there" and that fame won't change anything. You've only got Guigsy to go. Don't go after Tony though." she laughed.

 "Didn't think I'd be getting high either. I can't believe you just mentioned them all in the same sentence." I groaned, I wished I could wipe most of that night's events from history.

    We got sat in a cafe, drinking teas.

 "The thing is, were you safe?" she asked cautiously.

 "What d'you mean?" I was pretty sure she wasn't implying they had diseases.

 "I don't think me and Tony were in Scotland." she admitted.

 "What, you think you've left something in the oven?"

    She shushed me.

 "Kenzie!" I was shocked. "I assume I'm covered by the implant but we can take a test together if you want." I offered.

    I'd had the implant since I was eighteen, I couldn't remember whether it lasted three or five years but I wasn't worried.

 "Alright, can we do them round yours? Tony said something about doing the Boardwalk on the 1st (July) so they'll be all off rehearsing tomorrow won't they."

 "Yeah, come around in the afternoon."

 "Um, can you buy them, people don't know you." Great, she'd turned into a teenager.

...

    She came and we drank tea putting off having to do the tests, at least we were preparing our bladders for the job.

    As soon as I needed to go, I chose to man up and get it over with. I was pretty sure I was wasting a test but anything for a friend. She followed suit and we waited anxiously.

    The five minute wait was hell, it seemed to go on forever and I confident of the answer mine would give, I couldn't imagine what I'd be like if I thought there was a chance with the mess I was in..

    Kenzie refused to tell me what hers said, I couldn't even read her reaction at all, she just seemed spooked by the experience. She made an excuse to get home.

...

    The lads all came around a few hours later, they were in good spirits. Rehearsal had gone well and they couldn't wait for the gig the next day.

 "Come on, Mikey will let you." Liam protested when I told him I wasn't going because I had to work.

 "I've seen you do the Boardwalk loads, missing one won't hurt." I reasoned, eventually he gave up arguing, realising I wasn't going to change my mind.

    They got through quite a few cans of beer. The shops must think I'm constantly partying like it's New Year or I'm heavily into alcoholism with the amount they got through.

 "When were you going to tell us you're pregnant?" Noel asked after he came back from the toilet

    The place went silent and everyone glared at me, expecting answers. I felt Liam take my hand, I wasn't sure he did it voluntarily.

 "Who's is it?" Bonehead asked, realising he could be responsible.

 "What d'you mean? It's fucking mine!" Liam jumped to his feet to attack him, he wasn't going to let Bonehead suggest I was anyone else's.

 "Sure as hell isn't mine but are you sure about that?" Bonehead responded, challenging him, shoving him.

    Noel tried to separate them but just ended up brawling with them. Liam was too angry to back down. Tony and Guigsy just watched on knowing they weren't involved.

 "Stop it!" I shouted. "I didn't tell you because it's NOT FUCKING MINE." They still didn't stop. "I'm not pregnant" I added.

    They stopped and stared at me, expecting an explanation.

 "That test isn't mine, mine was negative." They sat back down and listened.

 "Who's would it have been?" Liam asked, still angry and confused.

 "Yours, it could only have been yours"

 "If it ain't yours, who did a test here?" Guigsy asked.

    I really didn't want Tony to find out like this. It wasn't fair on all involved.

 "What, is it Kenzie's?" Tony realised, I just nodded.

    He got up and left.

 "Who else have you shagged?" Liam asked, getting frustrated at being dismissed.

    I stared at Bonehead like I'd kill him if he said a word, I trusted Noel had no interest in telling his part. "No one, I promise."

 "It was that scouse, want it?"

    How do those two keep doing that?

 "Liam, I'm with you, no one else."

    We fell silent. I knew he didn't believe me and nothing I could say would make him trust my words. I had to change my ways, I had to make things right again.

 "Can't believe Our Tone is going to be a dad." Guigsy broke the silence.

 "Can we not talk about this? She didn't want anyone to know so it's not fair." I objected. "You ready for tomorrow?"

 "Yeah, it's only the Boardwalk, ain't it?" Noel said, he put a The Smiths CD on to defuse the tension.

...

    Later I rang Kenzie, I'd been worried about her because of how she'd reacted and because Tony had gone off to confront her.

 "I'm sorry I didn't tell you, I'm not keeping it so it doesn't matter." she told me.

 "What? Are you sure? What did Tony say?" I questioned.

 "Said it's not the right time and he's right. I can't have this baby."

Author Note- Bonus chapter really, just cos Liverpool won