I'd Like to be Somebody Else

Chapter 16

   "What about Louise anall, she could be knocking about somewhere?"

    Louise was his supposed soul mate girlfriend but their relationship was ridiculous, they were always on breaks.

 "No she's not, she's not been to any of your gigs. Hates it, don't she? I've only met her about twice anall."

 "She doesn't like you, that's why."

    I didn't know why, I thought she was alright.

 "Why'd you get me to break up with Liam if I can't even kiss you? Why am I even out here with you?" I questioned getting mad at him.

    He kissed me again. "I was just reminding you."

 "So romantic that. "Hey lets kiss but just remember I have a fucking soul mate already!" This is mental."

    I realised at that point I really shouldn't have been in this dark, graffitied, messy alley because our relationship was more ridiculous than theirs but I didn't want to walk away.

 "You've not finished with Jamie either. Me and her are on a break, you're not." he took a drag of his cigarette.

 "I haven't seen him in ages because you lot won't let me. I haven't seen him, I haven't spoke to him because of you."

...

    They supported The Verve throughout December, I ended up getting off with Richard Ashcroft, the lead singer when they played Manchester University. I caught a look at Liam's face, he was so jealous but I couldn't decide which one of us he was jealous of.

 "What's your game?" he asked as I walked past him.

 "Don't know what you're talking about?" I said sounding as innocent as physically possible.

 "Just saw you with Richard, little slut." he let out a laugh like it would stop me being offended by his insult.

 "Call me a slut again and Oasis'll need a new singer cos I'll cut your fucking throat." I threatened in a growl.

 "Woah calm down! What's up Stace?" he grabbed my hand. "Can't you take a joke anymore or is it that long since you had a proper orgasm that you're full of fucking pent up rage?"

 "It's totally that, you got me. Oh wait no, it's been a couple of hours."

 "Who? Tell me you didn't shag Ashcroft." he interrupted.

 "Jealous or something? What's it got to do with you? Thought you were fine with us not fucking?"

    He got a cigarette from his jacket and lit up. "Maybe I'm not."

 "Kenzie's over there. You can't smoke in here." I pointed ignoring what he'd said.

    She was six months pregnant and had finally told everyone she'd kept it, it was pretty obvious now. She still went to every gig she could.

 "Never did us three any harm." he shrugged. "She can leave if she wants."

 "You're a proper dickhead sometimes." I sighed.

 "But the rest of the time I'm fucking great and you love me for it." he said and took a drag.

    I found myself sat on his knee.

 "Go on, admit it." he said putting his hand on my thigh.

 "I must just have a thing for lead singers, these days." I sighed.

    I'd screwed up again, Richard was their mate and I couldn't help myself

 "Not really interested in guitarist, songwriters then?"

 "What are you on about? I'm here with you aren't I?" I leant to kiss him but he stopped me, almost burning me with the fag end.

 "Come on, we both know you're fucking Noel. I know you like to go between cousins but brothers, that's friggin' nasty."

 "Piss off Liam." I jumped off his knee and walked off.

    I should have been used to his dickheadary by now but he was too good at making just the right comment. I pulled my hood over my head and just kept walking until I ended up back home. I wanted to get in the car and take off again, I didn't deserve any of them, they were good to me and I'd fucked up too many times.

...

 "You fucking idiot!" I heard noel exclaim in a panicky anger ripping me from my dream.

    My clock read 3:47, I glared at him as the light came on, blinding me.

 "We've all been looking fucking everywhere for you."

 "Ugh, you found me so now you can go away. I'm an adult, if I don't want to stay at your stupid gig I won't."

 "What's up with you?"

 "Just leave me the fuck alone." I said just sounding tired, more than anything.

    He sighed. "Alright Yorkie, night." He turned the light off and shut the door.

    It was nice to know they all cared enough to notice I'd gone but not at nearly four in the morning.

...

    As December rolled on Oasis started recording their album which was just stressful for all involved, apparently no matter what they did it didn't sound like they (Noel) wanted it to.

    They didn't celebrate Christmas like my family did- I was almost tempted to go home just for the dinner. Paul, their older brother, came over for about an hour in the morning but that was about it, the lads didn't bother with presents or anything. For them it was just another day.

    We (me and the brothers, Kenzie wouldn't let Tony go, and Guigsy and Bonehead couldn't be bothered) did go out on New Year's Eve and really over did it, we were wasted by the end of the night. Liam was kicked out of the nightclub we'd gone to at about two am for fighting some huge skinhead bloke, Liam was lucky to be thrown out before he was knocked out.

 "I could fucking 'ave him!" he shouted as we forced him to walk away from the club.

 "Of course you could." I muttered, he was barely managing walking now. "What even happened?"

 "Knocked into me. Spilt his beer on me, didn't he? The bastard."

 "You are the angriest fucker." Noel commented. "Haven't got any beer on you."

 "Yeah I have! Can feel it." Liam protested, he tried to swing for Noel but he didn't get remotely close.

    I couldn't see any beer, what he could probably feel was blood.

 "Come on then if you want to hit me, hit me." Noel confronted him.

 "We need to get home at some point." I pointed out, trying to get them to walk without beating each other up.

    After we we'd walked a bit further Liam pushed me against a wall and started to kiss me, I was too drunk myself to push him away and Noel just pushed him aside enough to start kissing my neck.

Author Note- Liverpool won against Man City (2nd year running!)

The video basically I've just listened to it over n over for the last hour at least- it's Beady Eye