I'd Like to be Somebody Else

Chapter 81

We talked a lot since it had been too long since the last time we hung out again. She told me her and Russell were over, he wasn't happy to be with someone with two kids. I could have told her that right from the start. I knew Russell was far too easy to allure for family life.

I hoped she could find someone new. Someone better than him and Tony. She didn't deserve to be single, especially not because she had Tony's kids.

Jamie came over loads, he had no excuse now I was back in Manchester. He finally introduced me to his girlfriend Sinead, she was quite tall with long black hair and clear green eyes. She was outspoken but she got on well with everyone.

I couldn't believe how shocked she was when I told her I was with Noel Gallagher, apparently Jamie hadn't told her any of the band stuff. She loved them and had been in the crowd at the Liverpool gigs. I decided not to mention that she'd missed out on Knebworth.

Kate told me Bonehead had asked how we were doing a couple of times (for the benefit of the whole band's knowledge) but none of them even tried to phoned me themselves until December.

I was shocked to hear from Noel first, not Liam, as far as I knew neither had rang Peggy either which was not like them at all.

"I've missed you." Noel told me over the phone.

I was just happy to hear his voice and for some reason he sounded sober. "I really missed you too."

"Why'd you leave then?" he asked, sounding needy.

"It was all way too loud, me and Jimmyi decided we'd like to keep our hearing in tact." I told him cheekily.

"The kids are gonna love it, though. It is fucking brilliant." He made sure everyone was well aware of that. "How's Jimmyi? I stayed in this country to watch him grow up, didn't I?"

"He's doing well, getting close to standing and he's missing you loads." I was surprised how fast he was growing up.

"Well, we'll be finished for Christmas soon."

"Christmas?" None of them gave a shit about Christmas, I assumed they'd work through the holiday.

"Christ's birthday." he told me like I was stupid. "At Supernova Heights, tell Mam and that but don't go shouting about it."

"You want to celebrate Christmas? Who are you and what have you done to Noel Gallagher?" I questioned, confused.

"It's Jimmyi's first Christmas and his first birthday and then New Year. We need to fucking celebrate it all this year."

I shook my head even though he obviously couldn't see it. "You all pissed and moaned about me and Kenzie's Christmases, now you want it everyone's onboard. What the fuck?"

"I'm the Chief, what I say goes." he answered, everyone knew that and if you didn't you'd be cut out in a flash. "We still did everything you two wanted."

They were cutting people out of their lives left, right and centre. They didn't trust anyone except themselves and all the drug dealers they had hanging around.

"I know, bet you all had so much fun looking after the beached whale..."

"You weren't a beached whale, you were carrying my beautiful son." he cut me off.

"I'm just saying I appreciate you all looking after me and everything." I explained. "When are you coming home?"

"'Heights or Mam's?"

I was so happy he considered Peggy's house home. "Mam's cos I'm in Manchester, aren't I?"

"Just depends when we're done and the party's down mine anyway."

I sighed, I couldn't wait until Christmas to see him again.. "I really want to see you, just me and you."

"Give Jimmyi to Mam and get back to Surrey then." he suggested.

I didn't want to explain the Be Here Now's recording sessions to anyone (especially not Peggy, it'd send her concern through the roof) but I couldn't dump him on Kenzie. I went to Kate, I'd never asked her for anything before and she agreed.

...

I got back to Surrey and sat in on their recording again. It took a while before I managed to drag Noel away. Even coked up he was ever the professional.

"We're alone." I kissed him, sat in the Jaguar.

I wanted to go somewhere, the hotel or something I didn't know Surrey to suggest anywhere but Noel had other ideas.

"We are." he kissed back. "You wanna christen the Jag?"

"But that's the Beemer's thing..."

"It's bigger, you might not bang your head." He held back on laughing at that memory.

...

Almost a full week later (I'd stayed way longer than planned) I went back to Manchester. This time I had to argue my way back to the car, Noel didn't want me to go, I didn't want to go but I had to and he had to stop being distracted by me.

Thanks to my week away I had a pregnancy scare, in my excitement to get back to Noel and the band I'd forgotten to take my prescription with me.

Noel would have been delighted, he'd hinted all week about making Jimmyi a sibling and I insisted we must just be doing it at the wrong time or something... nothing to do with the fact that I was tricking my body into thinking it was already pregnant.

Still the test came up negative. I didn't know how I felt when I saw the result and I had no idea how it could have been negative after that week.

The lads came home (Supernova Heights) a week before Christmas. Jimmyi took his first steps about half an hour after being reunited with his Dad, like he'd been waiting to show off to him.

Christmas came and we celebrated Jimmyi's first Christmas and his first birthday as Noel wanted. It wasn't a conventional Christmas at all, Noel wouldn't have the place decorated so there was no tree or anything like that, in fact the only thing remotely Christmassy was the presents. They went out for New Year, the whole band.

...

After the Christmas holiday I rejoined them in Surrey. They continued as they left off in December but I had to be there and Jimmyi had to be there too. It was chaos all the way but no one cared because the money was there and work was getting done.

The songs were all brilliant again (of course) but they weren't happy unless they combined the singing with a lot of instruments and played as loud as physically possible. No one could tell them otherwise.

They finished recording on the 2nd of April.

I was so relieved that was over with, the only problem was now Liam's wedding was only a few days away and there was no way of stopping it.