I'd Like to be Somebody Else

Chapter 20

    They went off until the 7th of June. Me and Kenzie kept up our mundane day jobs. Since mine was evening work I spent a lot of time babysitting Thora, her grandparents still weren't that involved in her life.

    Jamie turned up without warning one day while the band was gone.

    I answered the door holding a basket full of laundry.

 "Did you nick my shirt?" he accused, I'd forgotten to tell him I had it.

    I explained what had happened and went and got it for him. I led him to the garden and put out the washing on the line. He helped a bit but mostly just gave me childish looks because I was handling the brothers' boxers and the rest of their clothes.

 "Did you come over here and find the house just to get a shirt?"

 "No, I came to see you. I just also needed the shirt back, thought I'd gone and fucking lost it." he admitted. "I'm sorry I was a dick before. I just can't stand you being here with them."

 "I could be in Northampton, er, Cambridge, London with them if that's better for you." I said counting the places on my fingers.

 "They're gone?" he was completely surprised.

 "Yeah, so if you were after a fight you can just go home." I told him.

 "I'm not here to fight anyone, glad they're not here though."

 "Why? They've never done anything to you, they let you backstage and everything. None of them get jealous of you."

 "None of them is your boyfriend, that's me but maybe I've got the wrong idea. I'm not jealous of anyone, especially these Mancs."

 "Maybe you have because I don't go out with jealous lads. You're jealous the moment someone else looks at me and you just said you can't stand me being around my friends."

    When we were done with the washing we went back inside and then I heard Thora cry over the baby monitor and went to see what she wanted. When she was settled I brought her downstairs.

    Jamie stared at her confused. "Whose is that?"

 "That, is Kenzie's daughter, Thora. What did you think exactly?"

 "I don't know, you didn't see me for months or anything. Could be ours, couldn't she?" he stupidly suggested.

 "Are you fucking kidding? You think I'd hide having a baby from you?" I got angry. "I told you Kenz' had a baby, you clearly didn't fucking listen, did you?"

 "I don't know, do I?"

 "If you really think I'd do that you'd better fuck off." I raised my voice. "We are done Jamie. You're so jealous all the fucking time and now you think I'm a liar." I yelled. "Luke would be so ashamed of you."

 "Luke would think you're a whore with the way you've been behaving." he said, not raising his voice at all. "Good bye Stacy, don't bother coming back to Liverpool, you're not welcome."

    He walked out the house, he didn't even slam the door. He just drove off so coldly.

    I flopped onto the sofa, having to be careful of Thora, who I was still holding in my arms. I was so angry, I didn't care that we'd broken up, I just hated what he had said. If I didn't have Thora, I would have punched a wall or smashed something up.

    By the time Peggy came home I'd turned to crying.

 "What's the matter, love?"

 "I've just fallen out with my friend, he came to apologise and we just fought again. Said I can't go back to Liverpool." I wiped away the tears.