I'd Like to be Somebody Else

Chapter 68

I was sat in the living room, nursing Jimmyi when I saw Noel's Rolls Royce pull up outside. I watched as his driver got out and opened the passenger door for him and then Noel walked to the house.

I was expecting Kenzie and the kids coming over, not him.

He wasn't supposed to be here, he was supposed to be on his way to Scotland. They had two nights in Edinburgh, tomorrow and the next day. A trip to Manchester was not on their schedule.

There was no reason that he'd turn up like this. He knew, he had to.

My heart started to race, filling me with adrenaline, ready for the fight. I didn't know whether to get Jimmyi out the way or hold him tight. I tried to breath, relax so Jimmyi didn't get upset and so Noel didn't realise I was panicking.

He didn't look angry, he looked calm, relaxed and normal. Either, neither Liam or Alan had told him and I'd got it completely wrong or he had a perfect poker face, waiting for the right time to explode, his sunglasses made it all the more difficult to tell.

I carried Jimmyi and opened the door for Noel. "Hi." I greeted, hoping he would explain himself.

I cheekily pulled his sunglasses off to see his eyes, hanging them on my top. I had to act like nothing was wrong and test his mood.

"Sup Yorkie?" he greeted with a grin. "Is someone having his dinner?"

I nodded and quickly wrapped my arm around him, holding Jimmyi tightly with the other.

"Does his Dad want anything to eat?"

I wanted to do a massive sigh of relief, I wanted to be sick or something but I held it in. There was no way he'd found out what I'd done.

"Nah, I can't stay long, Edinborough is calling." He walked past me to the kitchen.

I shut the door and followed him. "Any particular reason why you've made the two and half hour detour from Tyne & Wear?"

He poured himself a drink.

"If it was up to me I'd have come straight from Germany but I couldn't get the flight in." he pointed out. "You two are more than enough of a reason."

I smiled. "Aww, thanks Noel... but seriously you should be in Scotland by now, why aren't you?"

"Alright, I thought you might have an idea why Liam has been so mardy recently. Fucking smashing up his rooms and that." he admitted. "He wouldn't say a word to me, I know he tells you stuff."

I couldn't believe he was acting out like that, over Emily. He did that stuff anyway but this time it had nothing to do with the fact that it was in the rock n roll star handbook.

Of course I knew why but I couldn't tell him. I couldn't tell him I'd been struggling with postnatal depression and I certainly couldn't tell him Liam was mad because of me.

"It's hard to tell with him, he's not exactly a simple man." I answered, being just as evasive as he was.

"Stacy." He rolled his eyes at me, becoming impatient. "Do you know or not?"

Jimmyi was done nursing so I passed him to Noel. "I had a fight with Emily and they broke up over it." I explained what had happened without telling him about me and Liam.

"Didn't realise they were actually together." he said, unimpressed. "He's an idiot."

He gazed at his son, I wished I could see that awe, the proud look in his eyes I'd only seen when he held Jimmyi.