13th Doctor x Reader: Lost

Chapter 23: Emotions

You wake up feeling above the clouds from the best dream you've had in a long time. You crawl out of bed, looking down and realizing you are  in the same clothes... so it wasn't a dream. Oh... you slap your forehead. You're so embarrassed. Missy had to carry you back into your room... and if anyone saw... you bite your lip nervously.

The TARDIS senses your anxiety and gives you a reassuring humm. Okay, good, no one else knew. Hopefully.

You grab a -insert outfit-, and some dark gray combat boots. You hop into the shower, brush your hair and put it up in its casual messy bun. Taking a deep breath you brace yourself and head to the console room. Of course you are the last one up.

"Hey y/n! You're up!" The Doctor smile, working on something with the TARDIS, who lets out an annoyed humm as some wires spark. "Fine! Fix yourself!" She grumbles, throwing some alien tools in a box. The TARDIS lets out a pleased humm as the Doctor rolls her eyes.

You see Izzy whisper something to Yaz, who smiles lightly and whispers something back, making Izzy nod with a curious look on her face. You assume she's asking about the TARDIS.

"Here ya go." The Doctor hands you the same breakfast as yesterday.

You feel your heart racing. Izzy doesn't know, and you are going to keep it that way. You quickly eat the toast and gulp down the water, handing them back to the Doctor.

"You alright?" She whispers. You hastily nod and wander to the other side of the room, where Missy is.

She's fiddling with the umbrella and mumbling something inaudible under her breath. You don't really want to talk to anyone so you stand about five feet away and try to be quiet with your footsteps. Of course she hears you. You're really starting to think Time Lords have superior hearing.

"Sleep well?" She asks, not even looking up.

"Yeah, um... I'm really sorry about... falling asleep like that." You grimace at your awkward attempt of an apology. She looks at you, raising an eyebrow.

"I found it quite entertaining actually." She says in a dead-serious tone.

She isn't upset with you? Zack is always upset when you ignore him, let alone if you were to fall asleep like that. Not that you were ignoring Missy. You were just tired, you reassure yourself. She isn't upset with you, not everyone is Zack you remind yourself. Why did you have to turn everything against you?

Because you're self-centered.
You think everyone is out to get you.

You bite your lip, and realize your clenching your fists again.

"M... sorry..." You mumble walking back towards the controls. You don't look at Missy, afraid to see the look on her face.

"So Izzy, past, present, or future?" The Doctor asks cheerily.

"Future?" She seems skeptical that you would actually go anywhere.

"Alrighty then! I have some friends we could check up on!" She says, already working her way around the controls.

You feel the ground lurch below you. You grab onto the railing as the ship travels. Missy and the Doctor barely seem to notice. You wish you have that kind of balance.

"Here we are! A planet, where the robots speak emoji!" She throws her hands up in the air while walking up to the TARDIS doors. She turns around as you all stand there. "Well are you coming or not?" This was your first alien planet too.

"Yeah." You mumble, glancing over at Izzy who is standing by Yaz. "You okay?" You ask gently.

"Mhm." She mumbles, not really looking at you.