13th Doctor x Reader: Lost

Chapter 69: Images

Flashing glances between the two Time Ladies, you see one of them with a very anxious - and slightly guilty face, the other looking rather annoyed.

"What does that mean?" You ask, having a very strong feeling it isn't anything good.

"The entire planet's desolated, nothing natural can survive here." The Doctor says, grabbing two oxygen canisters and handing one to Missy. "It's not safe, and I want you to stay here."

"And everywhere else we've been is safe?" You argue. There's still the guilt of leaving Jenny that's been following you.

"I know it's not." The blonde argues, "I don't know what's out there, but we won't be long." She gives you a look that makes you sit on one of the couches, staring up at the dome.

Hearing the doors close, you sit up, starting to feel curious as to what this TARDIS is like.

"Hey." You call, wondering if she/he/it humms like the Doctor's.

You don't get a response. Sitting up, you walk over to the counsel, laying a hand on the edge. Still, no response, but a shock large enough to make you jump back. Either the TARDIS doesn't like you, or that's just the 'bio-locked' controls, whatever that means.

You decide you're probably not going to get a response any time soon, instead going to wander the corridors. Left or right... left. The hallway seems to endlessly stretch on, the lighting becoming more and more eerie. Turning around, you're met with a wall.

Slightly panicking now, there's only one way to go. Deeper into the ship. Unless...

"I don't know what you want." You softly start, placing a gentle hand on the extremely cold wall. It heats up, making you instantly pull a way with a very red hand. "But I'm not here to hurt you."

At that, you turn and see a wooden door that definitely wasn't there before. Taking it as a good sign, you cautiously enter.

Inside, you're met with a whirlwind of images. They forcefully draw you in, pushing themselves inside your head. Images of men, one with a black-grey mustache, a rotting corpse, another with a larger black beard, an older man, a younger man, O, Missy... ships exploding, the screams of so many people. Flying metal balls chasing humans, a sun going supernova, cyber men flying into the sky...

They all consume your mind, sending you tumbling to the ground. You realize this must be her past, everything she's done that made her feel distant from you. Now you see why the Doctor was so concerned about the two of you having a relationship... but you told her it's who she chose to be today.

The images won't leave, flashing through your memory. Every time you try to think of how she saved you on the colony ship, saved the children there, another planet dying replaces it. It seems like the TARDIS wants you to believe she's bad, but you won't. You know it isn't true anymore.

You fight the images with secret kisses, little comments, dances... children's screams overcome them, you see a woman with wild black hair being shot right through the heart, a blond woman in a red dress with a dazed look on her face as the younger Master leads her through a dance, Missy turning people to red dust.

Take a different approach. Ignorance, blissful ignorance. Stand up, you do. Walk to the door, you do. Telling yourself right step, left step, trying not to blink, knowing what would be waiting for you in the bare second of darkness. Just wander the corridors, doing what you can to hang onto each second. Left step, right step, just keep walking.

The sound of running is heard behind you. Turn around. You see the Doctor holding a sleeping Yaz run past you, she looks confused, but a metal door appears in front of her. You can barely register it.