*** PLEASE READ STOLEN MEMORIES ARE NEVER FORGOTTEN FIRST******
They say that people change after they get married. Wei Ying and Lan Zhan have been through so much in their young lives that change was inevitable for them. They are not the same men...
Hello my angels! This chapter almost wrote itself. It is probably one of my favorite chapters I've ever written so I hope you like it! Also, THANK YOU TO EVERYONE who has been reading and following me. I just reached my 100th follower and I am humbled by everyone's gracious support. I hope this chapter lives up to your expectations and that it gives you as many "feels" as it gave me. Please take care and keep smiling!
Wei Ying's POV:
I feel my lover's hand tighten around mine. His strength is comforting. I look at Lan Zhan and see the sorrow on his face. No one else would notice it if they looked at him. But I do. I know my husband better than anyone. Even better than he knows himself.
Asking him to allow the Yiling Laozu access to my past, a past apparently so horrible that I locked it deep inside me, is something I did not want to do. But I have no choice now. I'm hoping that, even though it will be painful to remember this suppressed memory of my parents, I will find something to use against my alternate self. Something that will give me an advantage over the part of me that lives in the darkness.
I am no longer strong enough to resist the resentful energy's influence on what is left of my golden core. The demonic core that is swallowing it whole grows stronger every day. I can feel myself succumbing to the unrelenting pressure that has been building outside my little haven I created to protect the last of the "good" me.
I look around at this space I carved out to seek refuge from the torment and suffering I had hoped to forget. It used to be a lot bigger. But now, Jingshi is all that remains. And I am constantly fighting to keep it intact. To keep my sanity. To stay alive and not lose my soul to the evil that lives outside. Or is it inside? I get so confused sometimes. I'm so tired I'm not even sure who I am anymore.
Lan Zhan's warm golden gaze meets mine and I try to mask my pain. I have to be strong for him. For us. I can't give up. Not now. Now that I have him here next to me, holding my hand and staring at me with eyes brimming full of love, devotion, and desire. I refuse to surrender. Even if this is only a dream, I am happy that I have this moment with my soulmate.
I smile to reassure him as best I can. "Lan Zhan, it's alright. I promise not to be mad. I won't lose myself. I won't lose you." I squeeze his hand and bring it up to place a long warm kiss on it. "I know the reason you never told me was to protect me. You would never hurt me. I know how much you love me and you know how much I love you. We are one. Forever."
I take him in my arms and he sinks into my embrace. My heart aches as I feel him melt against me and wrap his arms around my waist, his refusal to never let go apparent in his hands that slide up my back. We hold each other silently. I wish we could always stay like this. But the pressure outside the dome is increasing. Very soon, I won't be able to stop it from crushing me. I won't be able to stop 'me' from becoming 'him'.
I tenderly push my husband back and place a soft hand on his moist cheek. I wipe away his tears and replace them with butterfly kisses.
Oops! This image does not follow our content guidelines. To continue publishing, please remove it or upload a different image.
