"Rejection✖️And✖️Attempt"
Killua's POV:
I'm at a loss right now. Gon just told me that he doesn't like me as much as I like him. I feel like shit.
I start tearing up a little.
"I-I'm sorry, Killua, I just don't want to date boys." Gon started to softly cry. "Killua, do you forgive me?
"Forget it. I'm leaving." I said. I didn't care anymore. About 4 years of being friends. "Fuck you."
"K-Killua-"
I leave the room immediately. I had to go. I pick up Alluka from Mito.
"Going already, Killua?" Mito asked me.
"Yes, thanks for letting me in."
"Any time."
I run out of the house. I don't care anymore. I wanted death. Either I kill someone, or I kill myself.
Mito's POV:
After Killua leaves, I hear sobbing in the room above. I rush up to it. I open the door.
I see Gon crying on the floor with blood coming out of his arms.
"GON!!!" I scream for dear life.
I call 911.
"911, what's your emergency?" The operator said.
"I NEED AN AMBULANCE NOW!!!" I was screaming.
"Please calm down, ma'am, as I barely understood what you just said."
"I said- I. Need. An. Ambulance. Right. This. Very. Moment. My nephew is DYING on the floor."
a few minutes later.
Gon's POV:
I feel cold. I smell a metallic scent. So this is what dying feels like. I start to feel tired.
I'm going to die right now. I'm finally gonna have peace at my own will.
right after Killua left.
"I'm so worthless. I just broke my best friend's feelings. I don't deserve to live anymore. I'm just gonna end up hurting more people." These thoughts were circling around my head as Killua left. "I'm such a bad friend. I'm the worst person to ever step foot on this Earth."
I grabbed a razor blade, and started cutting myself. The cuts were deeper than usual, as I had one goal. Death.
back to present time
Mito's POV:
Oh my God, I need to call Killua immediately. I dialled him.
"OMG, KILLUA!" I was practically screaming.
"What, if it's about Gon, I don't want to listen."
"GON TRIED TO KILL HIMSELF, HE'S PASSED OUT AND LOSING BLOOD QUICKLY!"
"W-WAIT WHAT?!?!!? I'm coming right back!"
The ambulance arrived right when Killua came back. They went to Gon's room and put him on the bed. Then they put him in the ambulance. Me, Killua, and Alluka were in the ambulance too.
"Killua, I have a feeling you know why he did this." I start sobbing.
"Yeah, I do."
Killua's POV:
He felt guilty that he didn't want to love me. That's on me. I put the pressure on him. I'm the bad friend here. After I left, that made it feel like he was by himself. I hate myself.
"I told Gon that I had feelings for him after 4 years of knowing each other." I started to explain to Mito what happened before I left. "He said he wasn't gay and he didn't love me. I started getting mad and started crying and left right after. This happened because of the guilt I made him feel. This is all my fault." I start crying.
"Killua, this isn't your fault. You didn't mean for this to happen." She tried to comfort me.
Whatever. If he dies, the better half of me is gone. I'm the worst friend in the whole of the universe. Can't believe Illumi was actually right about how assassins can't make friends. I betrayed him. I tried to run away from him. I left him for two years all because my bloodlust wasn't satisfied. I wanna die now. I should be the one dying, not Gon. I don't deserve to live. He deserves to live. I wish he never saved me from the train tracks.
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Long X Lost X Friends (A Killugon Story)
FanfictionIt's been two years since Killua and Gon have talked to each other after separating near the World Tree. Gon has been feeling lonely ever since the split up. Will they ever meet up again, or will Gon meet his fate? ⚠️CONTAINS⚠️ suicidal thoughts/att...
