Long X Lost X Friends (A Killugon Story)

(15) He's X What?

Gon's POV:
so i wake up from my nap to see killua screaming my name.

"GON, STOP!"

b-but he's telling me to stop... oh no. i-is h-he? i look over at him. he's crying.

"shit." i thought. "he's having nightmares of me beating him up."

i go and try to wake him up.

"killua, it's okay, i'm here..." i said.

"g-gon..?" he said with wide open eyes.

i go and try to hug him and...

"GET AWAY FROM ME!" he started screaming while pushing me back with his left hand. i jump back.

"kil-"

"NO! YOU BEAT ME UP, YOU STUPID BITCH!"

i ran out and tried to call in kurapika and leorio. they were in the waiting room.

"pika, leorio." i said while there were tears in my eyes.

"Gon?" kurapika said.

"...And why are you crying?" leorio added.

"k-killua d-doesn't w-want me n-near him a-anymore."

"No, Gon, that's wouldn't be tru-" leorio said.

"how would you know? he fully told me to get out and called me a stupid bitch."

"No, Killua would ne-"

"fuck this shit, no one's believing me. i'm out." i said in an angry voice. "fuck you all!"

i ran to home. i unlock the door and i see aunt mito sitting at the dining table with alluka.

"Gon, back so soon? Where are the others?" she asked.

i ignore her and go straight to my room and lock the door.

i was crying into my pillow. no one cares about me anymore.

Kurapika's POV:
Damn, Gon ran away and Killua doesn't wanna see him anymore. Something is definitely up with these two.

Me and Leorio enter Killua's hospital room to him crying.

"Hey." I said to Killua.

"h-hi..." Killua said quietly.

"Any pain?" Leorio asked.

"in my heart."

"It's about Gon, isn't it."

He nods slightly.

"i told h-him i didn't want to s-see h-him a-anymore..."

"Why did you say that?" Leorio asked.

"i don't k-know... i couldn't c-control m-myself... he w-was just trying to help me...."

"So you mean to say you were telling Gon to fuck off from here when he was trying to you??!!?"

"Leorio-" I butted in.

"No, Gon is unpredictable when he's like this, we don't know what he's doing. He could be dead this very moment, y'know?"

I see Killua crying even more.

"i-it's all on me.."

"Leorio, look what you just did. What the hell is wrong with you?" I said, defending Killua.

"Well he-"

"Don't you dare finish that fucking sentence."

"kurapika, it's fine, it's my fault gon is like this..."

"Killua, no. It's not your fault."

"See? Even he's admitting it."

"You're a son of a bitch, you know that?"

"Well Killua could've just made one of my friends kill himself, and you can't say he wouldn't do it because he's tried before?" Leorio said.

"You're not wrong..." I said.

Killua's POV:
i broke my best friend's heart, i caused my two other friends to argue. all of that, because of me. shit, i'm a problem to everyone.

"i hope that wasn't the last of gon freecss i saw earlier." i thought. just thinking of it made me cry even more.

i notice that those two arguing just made me feel even worse.

"can you two just go?" i asked.

"Hmm?" kurapika questioned.

"I ASKED FOR YOU TWO TO FUCK OFF. WHAT ARE YOU? DEAF?"

"Jesus, Killua, you don't have to be a dick about it." Leorio said.

"just fuck off."

they hurried out of the room.

it felt better to be alone, but i had something missing. gon.

it was nighttime so i decided to try to sleep.

i ended up crying myself to sleep that night thinking about gon.

i miss him so much, but i know i just fucked up our chances.

i know he's gonna be mad. at me and himself. shit, he's gonna feel guilty. all because i made him feel that way. i made him feel like that he's the only one with problems but we both have them. i made him feel alone.

i'm a bad friend. i don't deserve him.

(A/N: that was hard to write without almost crying. i don't really know how to write angst, so i just go with my gut. leave a comment to tell me if it's good or not! till next time.)

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