Our Past Affliction (Elyu Series #1)

Prelude

I often ask myself what did I do to deserve the life that I have now?

Sabi nga nila mas magandang kamuhian ka nalang keysa sa makalimutan ka.

Noong nag-sisimula kami, hinanap ko mula sa kalangitan ang sagot sa nararamdaman ko. How can a cold heart beat with the same rythm as his? Mula sa sa mga bituin sa kalangitan ay nakita ko ang buong mundo sa mata niya na hindi ko aakalaing sisira din saakin balang araw.

I never imagine myself in this situation, since birth I was proven wrong by my mother.

But in his arms he made me realize, na kahit ako pa ang pinaka masama sa mundo, siya lang ang makakaintindi at tatanggapin ako. Nakakalungkot nga dahil kung sino pa ang hindi ko kaano-ano, 'yon pa ang tatanggap saakin. Oh I spoke to soon.

I was fooled.

Matagal na akong gising sa katotohanan, katotohanan na hinding-hindi ako magiging tama. Pero sa pag-lubog ng araw ay bumabagsak pa rin ako sa lupa. Na para bang hindi na ako natuto sa nangyari saakin noon.

Imagine growing up as a kid, your eyes were already wide open by the truth? The truth is that you will never be proven right. Because you are wrong since you were born.

As a kid that had never proven right and never felt any affection. I always question God, lumaki akong palasimba, kaya hindi ko maintindihan bakit ayaw akong pagbigyan ng Diyos na sumaya.

Until he gave him to me, True enough, the feeling was magnificent, I was alone in the dark when he found me.

Now look at me, still alon ein the dark.

How pitiful.

Vengeance.

Is there something wrong?

Kahit naka-pikit ang mata ko ay nakikita ko pa rin ang mukha niya, the whole universe, the stars are bright, tinaas ko ang kamay ko at sinubukang abutin ang kamay niya. My feet are floating in the air and I can't feel anything but pain. Pain.

Vengeance.

Tumingin ako sa ibaba ko at nakita ang kadiliman. I am still alive but I can't feel anything, like a black whole, no escape, no emotion at all. Just pure black.

Vengeance. A vibration from above make me way up from my dream.

I rise in my bathtub and stop my alarm before checking the time on my phone, ngumuso ako at bahagyang tinagilid ang ulo ko habang sinusuri ang cellphone ko.

I brush my hair up and crossed my leg, I take my glass off to the table and take a sip of my wine. No emotion escaped from my face.

"The world is really spinning huh" I said, I lick my lower lip and lean over to the bathtub. I closed my eyes again and let myself drowned again. Tomorrow morning I'm back at my usual. It's just like one of ordinary days nothing new, but suddenly my attention snatch when I heard Theo talking to Doctor Catakutan.

"Hello? Yes, Uhm. I emailed the company already. Doc? Yes Doc"

Napasulyap ako kay Theo at muling nag-balik ng tingin sa laptop ko. Huh.

After few seconds, binaba na niya ang telepeno niya at muling umayos ng upo. Kaya tumukhim ako at tinigil ang ginagawa.

"Did they confirm it already?" I asked in my soft voice. Kinuotan naman niya ako ng noo at sinulyapan ako ng tingin pero agad ding bumalik sa ginagawa niya.

"Yes, pero hindi pa sigurado kung kailan sila pupunta. Bakit excited ka?" It sounded sarcastic, I chuckled.

"Your funny"