Unfortunately Fortunate [Stucky x Reader]

chapter 37

In the elevator, you just can't stay quiet, "I get why you didn't tell me. And that is okay, because I know that you would tell me eventually. What I don't really get is why I didn't see it before and now everything makes more sense."
"We're glad that you know we would tell you. I'm sorry it went like this."
"Nah, don't be sorry, it's fine. Now I know a bit more of others too. And it will be fun to mess with some people."

You hear Bucky grin.
The elevator stops and you walk out, to feel a hand slip in your hand feels natural. You know it is Steve, just by feel.
Bucky walks in front of you, one pace faster than Steve and you and you appreciate how natural they make it feel to help you out.

Sitting down on the bed, you hear Bucky close the door as Steve sits down next to you.
"Discussion time, please. I'm dying to know more. Is there some kinky aspects in the dynamic too?"
Steve grins and presses a smiling kiss to your hand.

"Some. Nothing extreme." Bucky reassures as he sits down next to you too.
"Hmm, makes me wonder what. Care to tell me?"

"Let's talk dynamic first as we want to clear things out first." Steve says.
"Sure."

"Bucky and I have discussed this a while ago. So he knows what my boundaries and limits are regarding where and when he can Dom me. And of course what is allowed.
So for us it is mostly in the bedroom, and on non-mission days he can take some more control on my every day life. When and what to eat, I let him decide what we watch on TV or what book I read or even what I wear at times. I promised him to let him know when it is too much. We have safewords, of course, yet when I just say 'no' on something Bucky listens and stops. Apologizes even and we go on with our days as usual. I trust him to make the right decisions for me and he hasn't broken that trust as of yet. During missions, the dynamic falls away as for our own safety."
"Both physically as mentally." Bucky adds in.

"Okay, seems fair. How do I roll into that? I'm like a grey area. Sometimes I feel Domme, sometimes I feel sub, other times I need both."
"Do what feels natural. We'll figure out soon enough what dynamic you have based on how you act. So that is fully okay. As long as you don't try to Domme me with the intention of taking over, you'll be good." Bucky says, and you know why. He has been controlled before.
"I won't consciously do that, but please tell me if I ever cross a line or get too close. It will never be my intention, never, yet I still fear it might happen."
"The fact that you say that, makes me trust you to not do that. But rest assure, both me and Steve will communicate once a line is close to being crossed."
You nod.

"What are the safewords used?"
"I just use the light system. Red for immediate stop, yellow for 'give me a minute' and green for 'please don't you dare stop!'. We also have the colour blue, that's mostly when we try something new. I say that when I want to go further but I don't know how much I can take anymore and if I am able to tell myself my limit is crossed. Bucky knows then to be extra attentive to my state of being and my body language." Steve explains.
"I use the word 'hydra' when I am at my limit. When I need to safeword out because I am not in the right state of mind to do whatever it is we are doing. Especially before you untriggered me, this one was important because I could push out that word through the upcoming haze."
"Thank you for telling me this." You say.

"What words would you like to use?" Steve asks carefully.
"Can I use the light system too?" You sound a bit insecure.
"Of course. Same meanings?" Steve asks.
You nod.

"Since we covered that. Limits. Soft limits, hard limits. Tell us."
"Hard limit is anything to do with urine, scat, blood during play that is intentionally there."
"Oddly specific on that last part. Could you explain?" Bucky ask gently.
"We go on missions so of course we'll get hurt. If it is safe to continue when one of the smaller wounds opens up, well that's okay, I can deal with that. When I am on my period, well if it doesn't gross you out, please be my guest. Although I must admit I am more sensitive than. Yet, where I draw the line for me is when there are cuts made intentionally to make the other bleed during play. I'm not into that. Nor knives for that matter."
"Okay, noted. It's one of our hard limits too, we just wanted to clear out the details. Anything else?"

"No mind control, public stuff, objectification, humiliation, degradation. I don't mind to be called slut, sometimes, but never too much or anything else."
"Oh Doll, don't worry. Not into degrading or humiliating name calling at all. Or just the aspect in a whole." Bucky says, gently taking your hand and pressing a kiss on your palm.

"Anything else?"
"I'm pretty new to all this so I don't know other things yet."
"We'll be sure to ask and check in regularly. If anything changes, tell us and we'll make sure it never happens again!"
"Thank you."

"How about you two?"
"Hard limits? Basically what you said with the added extra of being choked." Steve says.
"Hard limits for me are calling me Soldat, my code words and mind control."

You nod.
"Sooo, what are the kinky stuff you are into?" You ask, trying to lighten the mood without taking the severity and the necessity away.

A/n: it's been a while, I just didn't find any time to write in between the lot of things that have happened! Both work related as private life related. But I got to write this, unedited chapter, that I left on a 'I need to know more' part because I am still trying to grasp what would be fitting. For our triad.
Have fun reading and thank you so much for your patience!