Unfortunately Fortunate [Stucky x Reader]

Chapter 52

You wake by soft whispering around you.
Still half asleep it is difficult to focus enough to hear what they are saying.
It takes a bit more or silent talking before you start to make up words.

"Will she be okay?" It's Clint's voice.
"Yes, I will be. Someday." You groan out as you sit up. You feel how the atmosphere suddenly turns tense.
"How much did you hear?" Tony asks.
"Only the question I answered."

"Doll, we might need to talk about your nightmare."
"Do we?" Fear and despair linger in your tone.
"After how you responded, sweetheart, I think we do." Steve kisses your forehead.
"It was only a nightmare."
"You seemed more like you were lost in a flashback."

"We have been worried about you for a while now. We talked with Bucky and Steve about it as we realised it is even worse than we thought." Loki gently mentions.

You sit up, feeling a tightness in your chest. A sudden snout on your hand stops this panic circle your mind was getting into.
"Until a few years before you found me, my life wasn't so great." You start, petting Hope's head to keep yourself grounded.
"It's were my gift really started. I had an affinity with healing all my life but after... They... I... " Your jaw tenses as you try to contain your response.

"What did they do?" Asks Bucky softly, his hand takes yours.
"As a teenager my dad, he... He realised I was different and that he could make money with my gift. So he ordered me to heal people for money. He started to become greedy and the money I raised was never enough. He got in touch with the wrong kind of people, and at the age of 17 I was sold into human trafficking. I was bought by this couple and ..." You stop and breath out steadily.

You get up and walk to where you hope is the kitchen. 
"Sweetheart?"
"I need a moment."  You feel the kitchen island and sink down, back against the cupboard doors.
Almost immediately you feel Hope and Cass next to you, both on either side of you.

"Doll?"
"Please, just... I need a moment."
The nagging feeling returns.
"J, is Zemo getting out of his room."
"It appears so."
"Tell him to get back to his room, that it is unsafe for him at the moment. If he still tries to get here, it is at his own risk."
Short silence.
"Mr. Zemo only requests to be able to get something quick to eat as it is past noon and he is in need of something to eat."

You get up again, "J lead me to the gym. Tell me when Zemo is out. I currently don't trust myself."

You hear people getting up but you hold up your hand. "J will keep you updated on how I'm doing."

Jarvis lead you to the gym, Hope and Cass follow you.
It is difficult to relive your past as it throughoutly traumatized you. It's when you feel the nagging turning into whispers you know something is wrong.
"J warn them that something is wrong."
"They are on their way. No one breached security so there is no external danger, Mr Zemo has been in his room."

Hope whines when you instinctually move, it brings you back.
"Fuck, I'm triggering myself."
"Let us help you?" You hear from Bucky. He sounds a bit away.
"I can't tell you. I can't. I really can't relive it like that anymore." Tears start to gather in your eyes.
"You can't tell us, but can you show me? Or let me look at the memories?" Loki asks.

"If you can get close enough without me snapping."
"I'm going to touch your shoulder and immobilize you, we're going to sit down and I'll feel wether you want to show me or let me look."
"You'll have to look. You need back up."
"Okay."

Loki's voice kept away, but mere seconds later you feel their hand on your shoulder and you feel your sit itself down. The whispering to attack is overpowering for a second, but before you can even try to get it back under control, you are sucked into your past.