Unfortunately Fortunate [Stucky x Reader]

Chapter 58

In the mind palace, both Loki and Y/N start working.
Going over what happened and how it all got triggered.
It's difficult for Y/N, being on the other side whereas she is usually the one listening and afterwards the one healing the other. To have someone do this for her.

"Careful!" Loki is quick to move Y/N and themselves out of the way as a tree falls down, shadows moving viciously. 
"That's my doing?"
Loki nods, "you gift feel threatened. I found a way to make you stop fighting in the world, so that everyone has a easier time to monitor us. I will say sorry in advance as I might give you frostbite."
"Small price if we all survive this."
"Thought so too. Now come on, concentrate on when it all really started. It was before your dad took advantage of your healing. Take a deep breath, close your yes. Yes, you are doing great, hold it, ... and breath out." 

You focus on your own memories, try to figure out how her dad figured it out. Before he started abusing her gift to gain more money. 
She takes another breath, shaky, trying to delf deeper into her past. 

Her body suddenly seems to simultaneously lock in place and relax, she feels her eyes move, feels herself mentally fall deeper and deeper while still feeling her body yet unable to control anything on it. 

She sees her mom, a gentle kind woman. Always joyous, kind. Willing to help everyone no matter what. Y/N joint to her hip, at the start literally as she was too young, only a small baby, when she could walk, she was always walking with her, holding her mom's leg. She saw how her mom helped so many people. She made potions, ointments, ... and she always embedded them with this bright golden near white light before giving them to the people. People always came back for her help, offering her things in return, food, clothing, kids toys, little trinkets, offers of repairment of many kinds, .. 
When Y/N turned 7 her mom took her aside, explained that she has a gift that helped people, that Y/n could have it too. That it was also a dangerous gift if used wrong. 
She explained the dangers, the beauty, the warning signs and the what ifs. 
Young as she was, Y/N listened and tried to understand, but it was so much adult talk that it was too much for her little head to all comprehend and remember.

And then her mother got sick, no one knows what disease and how it happened. One day she was okay, the next she was sick and less than 24 hours she was dead. 
Y/n was devistated, her dad was inconsolable. The people of the village took over some of the care until her dad was able to do it himself again. Yet he was never the same. He realized rather early that Y/n had the healing gift his wife had. At first he was okay with it, then he got greedy.

Suddenly Y/n opens her eyes, being face to face with shadow, surrounded in a darkness. 
"He used us." the voice echoes and bounces off the walls. 
"We remembered the warning, we told him. But he used us. He sold us. They used and abused us. We had to protect us. We had to keep us alive. And then it was safe again so we could rest, until we couldn't. Too much danger around us. Too many who can abuse us again."

"But we are protected. They can't use us."
"But what if they get greedy too?"
"They won't. They are as broken as us, they are as kind as us, they want to help, just like we do."
Y/N reaches her hands out to the shade, hands near where a face could be feeling the cold whisps of the shadow. Not solid, yet also palpable. 
"You and me are one, you protected me when I couldn't. Now let me protect you, teach you trust and how unpredictable safety can be too. Let's be us and let me take care of you now."
"What if it is unsafe? What if, while teaching me, I see and feel something so unsafe for us?" 
"We could talk, like we are now. Like you whispered to me before. We talk. We explain it too each other. We reach an agreement. We are and will be safe, even in danger." 
"The others, they are safe?"
"They are. And they worry about us. They are risking a lot for us now."

No words are spoken, the comforting cold of the shadow wrapping around her, and she opens her eyes, sees the world in too vibrant colors, feels Loki's cold body.
She smiles, "we're okay. Is everyone okay?"

Loki looks up, slowly detaches themselves from her. Het deep red eyes looking at her in fear, blue skin covered in marks. 
"You're okay Lokes, you helped me, us, get an understanding. We should be safe, Thank you for using up so much energy to keep us all safe." 
She smiles at them, still holding the too cold hands, yet they do not hurt as if there is a barrier protecting her against the cold yet feel the hand, 

"Glad it worked out. You should rest, I should too." Loki let's her hand go slowly, sits up but seems to have a dizzy spell. Tony supports them, before lifting them up bridal style while Loki protests verbally, yet leans into Tony.

"We should nap too, thank you Buck for staying here. I hope we didn't hurt you?"
"No, you didn't. The shadows tried to fight us off, but didn't hurt us. It's okay."
"Where's Steve?" Faith turns to look around the room. 
"He went with Bruce to the infirmary, getting everything ready. Your heartrate and temperature dropped dangerously, we will need to have you checked out in case there is permanent damage done." 
"Let's go then, I really want to sleep for 24hours or something."
Bucky smiles, "want me to carry you?"
"Why yes, kind Sir. Please carry me." Y/N smiles and let's herself be carried for a check up where she will see Steve too. 

A/N: it's not much, but it is something. I reread everything, fixed some mistakes (but not all...) I won't promise regular updates. I have not abandoned the story! 
Currently I work full time, while trying to get diagnosed with endometriosis. I am diagnosed through echo with adenomyosis. I have an MRI planned the 11th, the discussion of the MRI and the planning of a laprascopy will be on the 26th... In the meantime I keep being in severe pain that normal painkillers do nothing against. So my energy level is rather low, also dealing with a severe B12 deficiency AND my iron levels are just getting above the lower limit (I had extreme low iron and almost non existing ferritine - which is your iron reserve levels). So a lot of medical sh*t, but I am surviving!