Unfortunately Fortunate [Stucky x Reader]

Chapter 55 (TW)

A/N: A bit more of her past is discussed.
If you don't want to read stop when the *** starts and start reading when you see ----

Being carried back to bed by your soldiers feels safe. They are here. Yet there is this feeling inside you, ready to burst. It is slowly taking over all the possible rational thought.

"Miss Y/n, your vitals are changing, are you okay?" JARVIS asks. You feel how both Steve and Bucky tense, arms wrapping tighter around you.
"I don't know what they are discussing downstairs but they need to stop." You hear your own voice, there is danger laced in it.
It scares you. Knowing that it almost feels natural to let it take over right now.
Having had the mental heaviness of reliving part of you past, combined with the danger walking downstairs near the people you love as a family, whom you' d protect with your life.

You breath out heavily, clenching shut your eyes to feel the pressure of the muscles around your face.
"There was more." You whisper, knowing that Bucky and Steve are listening.
As you unclench your eyes, trying to relax your body and calm your breathing, your soldiers patiently wait.

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"I felt my powers grow, the more things that happened. The first time I realised what I was feeling, was when they made me heal a horrible guy. Once he got up, I heard how he started torturing. I think they were kids based on the sound of the little voices. It broke me. Once these monsters that kept me saw me breaking down for what I've done;" You take a shuttering breath, "I was beaten half to death. My body barely stable enough to start the healing progress. It was slow and torturous because I was not full of energy yet. It hurt, I felt horrible. There were these whispers urging me to do something. To let go..."

You stop talking for a moment. Seeing what happened in front of her eyes again.

"That was the first time I consciously let go of my powers. I heard their assistants coming back, heard their whispers about how they were going to make me pay for not healing fast enough. That they were losing thousands of dollars by the hour, that theybwouldn't get paid if I were not to heal myself soon. It scared me so much, so I... I let go. I killed them, I know I did even when no one was ever able to find those two again. As I was blind at the time, even I can't say what happened to them. It felt good to let go, to feel their terror for once instead of living in constant it myself constantly. They know I did something to their assistants, but they had no proof... but the idea was enough to once again beat me half to death. I was unconscious for a while, I know they did things to my... to my unconscious body."

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You take a deep breath and blink away the upcoming tears after having told them aboht the first time you felt this power and used it.

"I started repressing this power, holding it back until I couldn't anymore. It's why I am unable to control it, why it scares me.

"I am sorry you went through all that, sweetheart, thank you for telling us."

You smike a sad half smile.
"I feel like sleeping."
The question to keep you safe unspoken, unsure.
"We'l be here, Doll, we'll keep you safe. Now sleep, we'll protect you."
They lay down next to you, wrap you up within their arms.
They provid you with comfort and safety when you most need them.
"Thank you." You whisper as you slowly drift off to sleep.