Bottoms Up, Forget Tonight (Revelry Series #2)

Hakbang 20

"Cahira, let's talk!" sigaw ni Zathrian habang hinahabol ako palabas ng bar.

Hindi ako lumingon. Hindi ako nagpatinag. Hindi kahit ano. My mind and ears are close for any of his explanations. I am fucking tired of this situation! Iyong mahuhuli, bibigyan ko ng chance mag-explain, papatawarin, tapos manloloko ulit. I am fucking tired of it!

Hindi ako nabuhay sa mundong 'to para lokohin lagi ng mga lalaking 'to!

I wiped my tears harshly and composed myself. Mabilis ang lakad ko palabas. Nakita pa nga ako ni Kuya Albert, 'yong guard. Gulat siya noong napansin siguro na galing ako sa pag-iyak. Tumagos pa ang tingin niya sa likod ko kung nasaan ang amo niyang hinahabol ako. I just walked passed him with nothing but coldness.

I was done...

With everything... and everyone...

Kung ngayong magfling pa lang kami, nahuhuli ko na siyang may kahalikang iba, paano pa pala kung nagwork 'to lalo pa at totoong gusto ko naman talaga siya? He is another Kyler waiting to happen, and I refused to have that again!

I refused to be treated like shit again. Nakakasawa. Nakakapagod. Nakakatakot...

Diretso ang lakad ko papunta sa sasakyan. Pinatunog ko na agad 'yon malayo pa lang ako. When I got nearer, I immediately opened the door because I don't wanna stay anywhere near him anymore. It's suffocating me.

Pumasok ako sa sasakyan at hinagis na lang kung saan ang bag. I was about to close the door when a hand pulled it. I gritted my teeth.

"Cahira..." si Zathrian.

Hindi ko na pinilit isara ang pinto dahil hawak niya na. Mahigpit kong hinawakan ang manibela at hindi siya nilingon man lang. I stared coldly infront like he's not existing beside me at all.

"Cahira, let's talk this out," masuyong aniya.

I scoffed and looked at him with the coldest stare I could ever give to someone.

"Wala tayong dapat pang pag-usapan." mariin ang bawat bigkas ko ng salita.

Nagkatinginan kaming dalawa. While I stare at him with nothing but coldness, he stares at me with so many emotions in his eyes.

'Wag niya akong titignan ng ganyan kung kanina lang, may kahalikan siyang iba!

"I'll explain what happened-"

I cut him off. "No need to explain. I perfectly understand what I saw. You kissed someone. Ano 'yon? Fling mo rin? Dalawa kami? O marami pa at hindi ko lang alam?" I laughed sarcastically.

"I only have you, Cahira Hennessy." seryoso niyang sabi.

Muntik na akong maniwala pero graduate na ako sa pagiging tanga.

"Nice joke," peke kong ngiti.

His jaw clenched. "Can you atleast let me explain first?"

I stared at his eyes for seconds before I shook my head. That's my way to prove a point that I really mean what I say.

"Hindi ko kailangan ng paliwanag at hindi mo kailangan magpaliwanag. Wala namang tayo," umpisa ko.

"Cahira-"

I shook my head again and looked away, trying my very best to stop my tears from falling again. This opened the wounds I tried so hard to heal for the past years!

"Just keep your explanations to yourself. I don't need it," I said, emotionless.

Humugot ako ng malalim na hininga. I can feel the excruciating pain lingering in my chest. Can't believe it could heart me this bad! I swallowed the lump in my throat.