When Heaven Smiled

42

Chapter 42
Last, love.

I wish I was seventeen again, back where he was still courting me and everything was fine. Back when I still consider him as my first and last love.

All that matters to us at that time were studies, our passions, and aspirations in life. Ang tatlong bagay na 'yon ang nagpapausad sa amin sa araw-araw na buhay.

He was working on his band, hoping that they'll be known one day.

I was busy proving myself to everyone around me that having a boyfriend while studying isn't a hindrance to your dreams. I was ready to show them all that I would be a good doctor.

We were both ready to face the world together. Handa naming abutin ang mga pangarap namin ng sabay.

But maybe it's meant to be that way. He was just meant to be my first in everything; first love, first kiss, first dream, first heartbreak, and first disappointment.

Maybe we were too idealistic, ganoon siguro kapag bata ka. You're too ambitious, you make some unrealistic goals.

Sometimes, we need to adjust our dreams to our reality.

There are times that we set expectations to ourselves so high that we tend to be disappointed in the end. Nakakalimutan nating tao rin tayo; nagkakamali, nadadapa, nalilito at naiiba ang direksyon na tinatahak.

Maxon and I thought that we could get anything we want if we just worked hard for it. We didn't consider anything that could possibly happen. Both of us were unprepared for the storms that life gave us.

But it already happened. Having regrets is no use, it's like crying over spilled milk. It only hinders us from moving forward and chains us to our past instead of taking accountability for the actions and choices we made.

All I can do now is to make the most out of the time I have and learn from the mistakes that I made.

Pareho lang naman kaming nagkamali, pareho lang din naman kaming nasaktan. I was in pain because I didn't hear anything from him. He was in pain because he couldn't tell his explanation.

"Mag dahan-dahan ka!" he sounded like a dad scolding me. Nag-skate kasi ako palayo sa kanya.

"Kaya ko!" I skated backward, I was laughing at his reaction. He was overreacting!

Natigil lang ako sa pagtawa nang may mabangga ako sa balikat. Lumingon ako at napatingala sa isang matangkad na lalaki. He didn't look mad though.

"Sorry." Nahihiyang sabi ko, ngumiti lang ang lalaki at tumango.

Sinamaan pa ako ng tingin ng babaeng kasama niya. Girlfriend niya ata. They both skated away from my direction.

"Babe, ang clumsy. Mapapaaway pa tayo diyan e." Maxon hooked his arm around mine.

I rolled my eyes and followed his direction. He held my hand as we skated around the rink. Mukhang confident na siya dahil bumibilis na ang pag-skate niya. We held each other's hands as we both played like kids. Paikot-ikot kami roon na akala mo'y naglalaro ng ring around the rosie.

Tumigil lang kami nang madulas siya. Hindi ako nagkaroon ng oras para tumawa dahil nasama ako sa pagkadulas niya, he accidentally pulled my wrist.

Imbis na masaktan at magreklamo, ay natawa na lang ako. Good thing we were wearing gloves, it is really cold out here. No joke. The layered clothes helped me to be comfortable and warm.

"Nahulog," kinuha ko ang beanie niya na nasa tabi lang niya.

I fixed his hair and put it on his head. He was just staring at me as if he was amused of what's happening.