GABRIELLA'S
"Gab, asan kana? Gosh! Nakakastress ka ha. You better get you ass in here. Nandito na si sir at hinahanap ka." Loyda yelled at me. But when I realized what she just said, I felt my body tremble for some reason. Parang biglang nangatog ang mga tuhod ko, that I can't even get up. She then hang up. I on the other hand, don't know what to do, or what to think off. How am I suppose to face him now? I know, I can't avoid him. Yeah---I've been avoiding him---like all the time, since kagabi pa lang naman. I've been avoiding his calls, I didn't even bother answering his text messages. So ayun nga, alam kong napapansin niya 'yon kaya ilang beses niya akong ipatawag sa mga kaopisina ko. I'm making myself busy para may maidadahilan ako, but that jerk---he's doing or using rather everything and everyone para mapapunta lamang ako sa opisina niya. But NO! I will not let him do things his way.
So here I am now trying my very best to avoid. Naisip ko, tama si Niks, I'm tough. I shouldn't let anyone treat me this way. Given the fact that I love him---still wala pa rin siyang karapatan para gawin sa akin ang ganito. He should be grateful that I gave everything to him--- even if he doesn't deserve it---perhaps? "Ms. Ramos, the president would like to have a word with you." Nagulantang naman ako bigla sa pagsulpot ng secretary niya. Halos mapukaw lahat ng tingin sa akin. I even heard someone says O-oh!
I took a deep breath and walk towards his so-called office. I knocked three times, pakiramdam ko malalagutan ako ng hininga. "Come in." Maawtoridad niyang saad.
"Sir, may kailangan po kayo?" I said casually, I thanked all the gods that I didn't stutter when I said those words. I blushed on how she look at me, what the hell is wrong with you! Snap out of it Yla! I mentally cursed myself. "I like the way you blushed, it makes you even more irresistible." He said huskily, while slowly making his way towards mine. "Stop it right there!" Napalakas ang boses ko sa sobrang kabang nararamdaman ko. Shit! Why am I even feeling this in the first place?
Get a hold if yourself Yla, geez he's just a man for crying out loud! Sita ko sa sarili ko. Yeah! A very gorgeous man, may I add. Biglang singit ng utak ko. "Why---are you afraid of me Gaby?---or you're afraid because you also feel the tension between us. Do you feel it too?" Nang-aakit ang mga mata niyang nakatingin sa akin. "You got me loosing my mind Gaby, you know that? Every damn time you're near I can't think clearly." Mapang-akit niyang turan. Which automatically send shivers down my spine. Oh gosh no! He was about to take few more steps, when my phone rang.
I automatically snap out of it. "H-hello?!" Gosh, napalakas ang boses ko, I even heard him smirked. Hindi ko na lamang siya pinansin. "Yes? Ay---oo pala, sorry I forgot. Thanks anyway I'm on my way na, yeah---ok drive safely, Luke." Then I ended the call. I was putting my phone back to my pocket when suddenly Kiefer grab my wrists. Sobrang higpit ng pagkakahawak niya, na hula ko magkakapasa ito. I was fighting back the tears that's coming out from my eyes, I don't want him to see me cry, no! I will not cry infront of him! I will not let him see me weak. I push him hard, pero masyado siyang malakas kaya hindi man lang siya natinag sa kinatatayuan niya. "Who's Luke you're talking to?" He sound so pissed that any moment kapag hindi ako nagsalita malilintikan talaga ako. "Luke Jacob Dela Rosa, why?!" Nakipagsukatan ako ng tingin sa kanya. Hindi ako magpapatalo sa kanya, kung 'yon ang inaakala niya. "I only ask once Gaby, why the fuck are you talking to Luke?!" Mariing wika niya. I can't almost feel my wrists sa sobrang higpit ng pagkakahawak niya. And everytime he speaks, mas lalong humihigpit ang pagkakahawak niya sa akin. "Why?!" Sigaw niyang muli. "I thought you said, you only asked once?" Nang-aasar kong tanong sa kanya. Yeah Gaby! I feel proud the moment I look at him. This time his jaw clenched even tighter. Kung posible pa bang mangayari 'yon.
"Answer me Gaby! Fuck!" He shout profusely, I can see his face is so red dahil sa sobrang galit. Why is he acting like a jelous jerk now? I thought this is what he wants? "Luke is my date." Madiin kong saad. "What?!" I gasped hard as his voice boomed sa buong kwarto. "Are you fucking kidding me Gaby?! I thought I made myself clear to you?!" Nanggagalaiti niyang sigaw. "I. Don't. Fucking. Share. What's. Mine Gaby. I fucking own you! And you!---you can't do anything about it. So when I say, you will not go on a date with that jerk, you better do it. I'm telling you now,dahil hindi magugustuhan ang magagawa ko!" He hissed. His voice was very stern. And I can sense that he is so mad right now, but I can't just let him to these things to me. Na kung kelan niya gusto saka lang niya aamuhin. At yoon ang hindi matanggap ng sistema ko. I love him alright---pero nakakapagod din ang palaging nagbibigay na lang.
"I'm sorry to disappoint you, but I'm still going---with him and you can't do anything about it. It's my decision to go out with him. Madiin kong saad, that sure makes him more pissed if that's even possible. He held me tighter, and I was appalled when he closed the gap between us---and kissed me hard. So hard that I can taste blood in it. His kisses was so hard---and yet so deep, na para bang inuubos niya ang lakas ko. His kisses are so demanding. I miss this---honestly speaking I miss him, very much. I miss the feeling--him holding me in his arms, and just like that. I lost my senses. I couldn't think clearly.
The kissed last for a minute or something, ni hindi ko namalayang nakalayo na pala siya sa akin. I on the hand still standing like a crazy person---still eyes closed. Napamulat na lamang ako ng marahan siyang umubo, and that alone took me back to reality.
"Now, are you still going out with him?" He asked. Just as he said that, I slapped him hard. How dare he. Meaning he only did that to prove a point---that I am His?!
"Fuck you!" I shout at him. "You don't own me Kiefer! Nobody does!" I was holding back the tears. I so haye him that I want to skin him alive. "You lingered Gaby, now tell me, you give in, hindi pa ba ako ang nagmamay-ari sa iyo? I own you since the day you gave your fucking self to me. And it will stay that way, unless I say so! Akin ka! Akin lang! Walang Nicollo, walang Luke, o kahit na sino! Akin ka lang Gaby!" Madiin niyang sigaw sa harap ko. Hindi ko maapuhap ang sana'y salitang gustong sabihin sa kanya. I was like---dumbfounded with the words he said. What he said is like more than enough para maramdaman ko na nagseselos siya---could it be?
"You can go out with him, if that'a what you like---but I am telling you now, no mushy stuff Gaby, kapag nakita kong hinawakan niya ni dulo ng daliri mo, I'll skin him alive---believe me, I will." He the kissed me, and make his way towards the door. Naiwan akong nakatanga sa loob waiting for his words to sink in sa utak ko.
Nanghihinang napaupo na lamang ako sa sofa. Then there I realized na kanina pa pala ako hindi makahinga ng maayos. So--- I can't do anything huh?
What the hell just happened? Naihilamos ko na lamang ang mga kamay ko sa mukha ko.
