anamarieperez23--- this chapter is for you. Hope you like it.
KIEFER'S
Fuck! How many times do I have to tell her---I fucking own her!
Flashback...
I was talking with Rio when someone caught my attention. Hindi ko na sana bibigyang pansin ang pinag-uusapan nila, but then I wasn't expecting the words that came out from her mouth. "Gosh, taray talaga ni Gabs 'no? Imagine, kasama niya ngayon si sir Luke--and looks like they're having the time of their lives." Natutuwang banggit niya. I don't mean to eavesdrops but what she said literally make my jaw clenched. I move closer to them, but still keeping my distance para hindi sila magtaka. "Talaga? Pansin ko nga, napapadalas si sir Luke dito eh, now I know the reason why, sayang crush ko pa naman 'yon." Nanghihinayang na banggit ng kausap nito. Kung nakakamatay lang ang pagtingin ng masama, malamang sa malamang kanina pa nakahandusay 'tong dalawang babaeng 'to. "Ih, grabe kinikilig nga ako kay sir kanina, can you imagine, pinagpipili niya pa si Gabs kanina ng isusuot. Grabe! Haha at girl, kung makatitig kay Gabs, pakiramdam ko, matutunaw ako sa kinatatayuan ko, right at that moment." Nangingisay na sabi niya.
"Bagay na ba---" Before she could say anything, I shut her up. "Where is she?" My voice boomed out. "S-sir?" Magkasabay na bigkas nila. I can see their body shaking out of fear, I grinned with that thought. "Bago ako tuluyang hindi matuwa sa 'yo, tell me where the fuck Gabriella is, or I will have your desk be cleared." Unti-unti kong lapit sa kanya.
Their mouths literally drop. I sighed. Is this how hard na makipag-usap sa mga babae. All I'm asking is Gaby's location, is it that hard to say? I don't know, if they were just dumb-founded or stupid to answer a simple question. I waited in anticipation.
I looked at her name-tag. "So, Jasmin. Look, I don't have all day na makipagtitigan sa inyo. I'm sure you knew that already. So---I'm gonna ask you again, and this time, better answer it---or else I'll fire you. Got it?" I said with a stern voice. Saka lamang siya mukhang natauhan. At hindi magkandaugaga sa pagsalita. "A-a ahm s-sir ka-si, shit!" Napapatawa na lamang sa reaksiyon niya. "Sa-sa... Vega's Starmall p-po sir." And there. I left them without saying anything. I'll deal with them later.
I'll deal with her first.
And now, here I am, looking like an idiot. I don't know what came over me, but I just found myself following them, kahit saan man sila magpunta. They went everywhere, it's more like a date ang nangyayare, pansin kong kanina pa siya nakangiti, nakatawa, and it really gives me the creap. I feel rage enveloping my whole being. Pakiramdam ko makakapatay ako, any moment. Naiinggit ako, dahil kay Luke, nakakatawa siya ng ganoon, pero pag sa akin, lageng nakasimangot. Nakaramdam ako ng panibugho. She never smiled at me like the way she's smiling at him now. I feel so-----jelous!
Sa akin siya dapat ngumingiti ng ganoon. I know, I'm not suppose to feel this way, but I can't help it. I was about to turn away because I can't stand the things na nakikita ko, when suddenly, my heart beats so fast---so fast, that I could feel any moment magwawala na lang ako dito. It happened so fast that I didn't get the chance to stop whatever it is happening. Bigla ko na lamang nasuntok ang pader kung saan ako nakatago nang makita ko ang paghalik ni Luke sa kanya. I closed my eyes to wake me up, hoping that, once I opened them hindi totoo ang nakikita ko, I want to die right there and then---to stop the pain I am feeling right now. It's like my heart is being ripped apart. Nanlulumong napaupo ako sa sahig. Kung hindi ko pa napansing nakatingin sa akin ang lahat ng daraan ay hindi kp balak na tumayo. But then, a kid came near me and, "hey mister, get up." There I realized what the kid just told me, na para bang may iba pang ibig sabihin. I slowly get up pero pakiramdam kp hirap na hirap akong tumayo.
This is the very first time, na wala akong nagawa. I just stood there and watched them---laughing theirselves out. Is she? No! Mariing tanggi ko. Wala pa naman siguro siyang nararamdaman kay Luke---sana.
It's my fault anyway, if I'd just approached her in a different way, ako sana ang kasama niya ngayon. Para sa akin sana ang mga ngiting 'yon. I never felt this kind of emotions before, pakiramdam ko may mga maliliit na karayom na nagsisiksikang tumutusok deep inside my chest. But I just can't let her go. I need her now---not in my bed. I just want to be with her, I want to apologize, I want to set things right---this time I will set things right.
All this time I have been a jerk, I know I've hurt her many times, and now I'm hoping that it'a not too late para ayusin ang mga bagay. And by the time na magkausap kami, I will tell her, my feelings for her. I will tell her I love her. Yes! I love her---with all my heart, I was just blinded by the fact na hindi ko siya magugustuhan because she's differrent. Naiiba siya sa mga babaeng pwede kong mahalin, and that was it.
I love her because she's different, at 'yon ang minahal ko sa kanya. Ang pagiging iba---I was just stupid enough to realized that now. But hell! I will not her go! Not today, not ever.
I'll make her mine, by hook or by crook!
